Lag Ba'omer & The Scent Of Torah - A Woman's Calling in Torah (Rav Aryeh Cohen and Rav Burg) Pt. 1

2:48 And the emmas was even, these were high school guys, but they were really meant it. And anyway, they were minyanim all night long. I said, of course go. Do your thing. And all night long, you know, there's hundreds of thousands of people, so you don't really bump into each other. I'm doing, my night was, mom is incredible, and it was about 4, 4.30 in the morning. I bump into those two talmidim. We're talking about the night how special it was, the dancing, the kirvas Elohim, the tilos, and I say, oh guys, did you die from my wrath? And like already we mamish totally forgot, we really meant to. We were so into everything. It was a night of kedushim but they just forgot. And I quickly calculated. I saw that it was already after After Alos HaShachar, after dawn, before Neit HaChama, before sunrise. We're going to dive in Shachar, it's another half hour 40 minute, whatever it was. And by Alos HaShachar many hold you no longer could dive in miref. Already you could dive in miref all night long.

4:08 Ein lo quevah the Mishnah says in Brachos. But when you hit Alos HaShachar, dawn, it's already He's the day that you can still dive in as long as it's not nay tacham, as long as it's not sunrise. In that time between our lowest and nayates you can still dive in mairif. Lag Ba'omer says, K'idayy liz smoch ha'rab shimim bishaz a'ra'ak. And we could rely on Reb Shimim in an emergency. And in the end, we could rely on Reb Shimim in a emergency. We could rely on Rav Shimon in an emergency situation and here we were standing by the cover of Shimon and Rav Shimon's the day, Rav Shimon's the opinion that you can still David Mairim I said to them, look where we are, David Mairim And the two of them David Mairim right there I have a picture in my house of them David Mairim It was an incredible moment I was thinking about how special that moment was, it wasn't just the halachah and bad Rav Shimon If you know a little bit about Repshimmon, you know a little bit about Zohar, you know a little bit about Panimus Ha'Torah What Lag Ba'omer represents, he represents so much so that even in the darkest of ours, even when we feel that we're almost giving up on all hope Krishna Baruch loves us, and there's always an hour, there's always a light, and Hashem is always by our side

5:37 And all of Zohar is teaching us this message And all of Repshimmon was about Repshimmon, and the darkest of caves is learning, the deepest of Torah Mevas crashing into the Torah from the Torah itself. But what is this Yontov of Lag Ba'omer all about? Because Lag Ba'omer is very strange. It's one of these very hidden Yom N'Tovim. On the surface most don't understand. If you'd asked them, what are we celebrating, Lag Ba'omer? It's very strange. What are we celebrating the death of a Sadech? Do we have any other day where we really have such a The celebration of a yard site of Shimon Dyeh, let's dance. Really? Strange. How about we know, you thinking maybe, the Talmidim Rebbe Kiva. Let's go back to that. The Talmidim Rebbe Kiva. So we're in our valous, we're mourning 24,000 Talmidim, the parish. They stopped dying.

7:08 They stopped dying because they were all dead. They stopped dying because they finished dying out. It's not like, ah, and there were half of them were dying in it. Pach Hashem, they stopped dying and we had, no, no, no, they were all dead. So let's celebrate, okay, maybe that veilos is over. So stop mourning, but we're going to time, so we're going to sing, and we're going to celebrate a yantiv of lag Ba'omer. Really? What is it all about? So if you have to understand any yantiv, you have to go back to its origin. Sadduq teaches us the first of anything is the is the asod is the foundation is fundamentals what it's all about So it's the origin of lag Ba'omer What's the first occurrence that happened that we know about on lag Ba'omer because that could maybe give us a little bit of a an Understanding what the day is all about So Samsul for as a whole Torah where he develops that on lag Ba'omer and Chayir That was the day The month began to fall That when we left Mitsrayim, we brought with us food, we had food with us.

8:22 And that food, He has all Chazbini explained, we had enough for 30 days. And for three days we went actually without food. And the mon began to fall and lag Ba'omer. And what's the significance of the mon beginning to fall and lag Ba'omer? What's the connection to Ripshibin? Before we explain this one other connection I want to make and that is that there's a deep connection that we see in Hala'ah between L'Aghbaum and Purim. In fact, the day of the week that L'Aghba'omer is going to always be is the Purim Shavar. Pelag Chai is the mnemonic to remember. Pelag Purim L'Aghba'omer Chai, the 18th Deivir. Pelag Purim L'Aghba'omer, if you remember, a lot of us were had this Chos to be together on Purim. Beautiful, beautiful time in the oil. So Purim was on a Tuesday, right? Remember this year? Purim was on a Tuesday.

9:23 I don't know how many remember Purim, right? It's one of Allah's supposed to remember Purim, right? Trust me, it was a Tuesday. It was Lag Ba'omer Monday night Tuesday. Lag Ba'omer is going to be eating. Merteshah Shabbom Monday night Tuesday. It's always the same day. And if it's the same day, there has to be a deeper connection. The Impurim of Lag Ba'omer as well. So we have a connection between the mon beginning to fall and connection with Purim. What is that? So what is Lag Ba'omer? The way I've always understood Lag Ba'omer is the following. And when you understand Lag Ba'omer in the following way, you're going to understand also why it's the deepest achonah for Kabbal Satorah, the Cteshah slavery, the Berditchiff and others explain that really the working on ourselves, the hard avodah of Litayr, Vada'er mi'um usaynu of these days is really in some level finished at Lag Ba'omer Now we have 17 days of toy of tawyv gimatriel the last 17 days in tawyv el tora already at kabbal sator You know what happened on Lag Ba'omer?

10:30 Lag Ba'omer was the day He asked the Rav Shimmah Bar Yechayev pass away. It's his yurtsed and that's why there's such a gathering by his gatherer. But you know what else happened on that day? Rav Shimmah Bar Yechayev took his talmidim and he revealed much of the zor on that day But he didn't just reveal it. He understood Ais Lassos La Sharon Dzor, Penim Yezatorah, Torshva Pah. And until that point in time that was not supposed to be written down, Torshva Pah was supposed to be revvitah Talmud or El Torah. But if Shammah Baruch I understood that if it wasn't written down it would be lost forever, we wouldn't have Dzor today. He told us, tell me that not only did he give it over, he told them to write it down. And therefore it's because of this day lag blimey that we have the Zohar, that we have Kedimah Tzachor.

11:21 There's more than that. Who was one of the Tammi'de Nub Shimei, Re'chay Rabbi Huda HaNasi. The Tan Rabbi Huda. And what a Rabbi Huda understand from his Rabbi Re'chimein when he understood the Re'chimein on the day of his pitirah, said to write down the Zohar. Years later he understood that Aesla's L'Hashem, I have to write down Mishnais. Mishnaes until the time of Reudan Azziv Mishnaes was a laurel. Why do we have Mishnaes today? Why do we have Torah Shabbat? Rebbe Yudan Azziv wrote it down. How did he know he was able to do that? Where did he learn that? From Repshim B'echai on this day and through Mishnaes eventually we have the Gemara. All of Torah Shabbat Our whole lives that we live our lives by Torah therefore is dependent on Lot Beimur. It's that day It's that the Yartan and now we understand also They don't understand Rebbe Ekeeva. Rebbe Ekeeva's talmidim are we celebrating them? Rebbe Ekeeva's talmidim finished dying?

12:20 We're not celebrating them, they finished dying because they all died out But you know what else happens on that day because I'll tell us the Gemara teaches us so beautifully They're Rebbe Ekeeva who just lost 24,000 talmidim. We can't understand what that must have been like I've unfortunately lost a few talmidim in my life You know what it is to lose the Talmud you know it's losing a child You don't forget it every day of your life. 24,000 talmidim. What would most people have done? Roods. Gone in a corner. Crolled up into a ball and cried for the remainder of one's life. What do we find, Rabbi Akiva? What do we find, the perseverance of Rabbi Akiva? The greatness of Rabbi Akiva? On that very day he took five new talmidim. He took talmidim, Ramesh Yim He took talmidim Rameh He took ma talmidim Rebbe Uddah. He took talmidim, there was the continuity of Torah.

13:31 Meaning at that moment Rabbi Kiva was the Amrah Torah. He was giving that over to the next door and that door was wiped out. And if Rabbi Kiva gave up and was M'sayyish because of If you had a whole weekend you didn't have Shabbos to look forward to, how dreadful that week would be. Wouldn't be a week, I wouldn't be able to live that week. How do we have Shabbos through Torah? We learn what Shabbos is. Without Torah we don't even know what Shabbos is. Even if you only had Torah Shbixav, you'd know anything about Shabbos, what would you know about Shabbos? It's a holy day. All the Malachlas are in Torah Shbap'eh. So we'd know that on Saul maybe, and not to make a fire. That's about it. That's about it. Lag Ba'omer The Yom Tov To celebrate the fact that I have Torah, that you have Torah, that we have Torah, that we can live Torah.

14:59 And if we can live Torah, that we can live with the Rebeinishom. That I have a relationship with Hashem because without Torah, how else do I relate to Hashem? How else do I have a relationship with the Ain Suif? If not for Torah, as Tanya tells the Pergdahl that I can give the Rebeinishom a hug. And now we understand why this was the day that the mon began to fall. Chazal tichos L'onit na Torah Elulaych lemon The Torah was only given to the generation where the mon fell. Because the Kishbakkah wanted that generation to be free of any responsibility of Gashmez and be able to be absorbed in Torah. Many other ideas went out for it right now. But L'onit na Torah Elulaych lemon, so on the day that we have, to be thankful for Torah that we have, The Young Day that was the foundation of receiving the Torah. And that as well of course is a connection to Purim.

15:57 Because if you know a little bit about Purim and the Gavar in Shabbos Pe'chas tells us that Purim, after the beautiful story of Purim, what's the lingering taste of Purim? Khemu b'kibla yudu khemubah shekibla kavar. Another kabbal satorah. So the day of Torah, the day where we celebrate the fact that we have Torah. That's what we're celebrating. On Monday and age, wherever you're going to be, you're going to be celebrating and dancing and singing and just living Yiddish kite in such a passionate, incredible way. Now you understand, we're going to be celebrating Tyrogh. We're going to be celebrating Yiddish kite. Without this day, we don't have it. That alone, kaidesh kadasha. But the question is, what does that mean to you? Because let's be real, MS, obviously Torah is different to men and to women. And there's a different chiyv of Limah torah For you most of your life is not going to be from this point on in your life given over to studying Torah hours and hours a day It's not your ikertafkeid Say for men the Gisaboyom V'leilah. What is what is this all kambal satoyeir Shavuos?

17:17 What is the day of lag ba'omer? Which is a day of celebration of panimias torah day of celebration Of the fact that we have torah shabbal pet. What does that mean for each and every one of you? The Zohar Rav Shimborei Chai tells us very famously that there are 600,000 letters in the Torah. That's the famous acronym of Yisrael, Wobanei Shroel, Yisrael's Roshitevos, Yay Sheeshim Rebbe Aysi Yisrael's Torah. Yay sheeshim Rebbe aysi Yisrael's Torah. There are 600,000 letters in the Torah. And the Zohar tells us that not only are there 600,000 letters, but those are K'neged the 600,000 ishomos of Klal Yisrael 600,000 ikr Neshomos of Klal Yisrael We're not gonna get into Gogulim and reincarnations all these ideas but there's 600,000 Yisoidistic fundamental foundational souls of B'nei Yisrael. Problem is first of all it's hard to understand that seemingly it's K'neged the plastic imparach's bow that tells us there were 600,000 Jews that

18:34 Mitzrayim those are the 600,000 when we became a nation. The problem is those were 600,000 Jews, those were men and that didn't include women or children. Okay children will grow and we could understand they couldn't be. But women, what about women? So you have to know another Zor. And the Zor tells us that a man without a woman is only half and this is makeup of an ish and ishah together that make one neshama. And ultimately every neshama was initially one neshama that split and that's what you're searching for in your B'sherit. And therefore the 600,000 neshamas each one is an ishvishah in a certain sense. A man and a woman should be one. You know like the famous story of Aryeh Levine, right? You've all heard this story and the rest of Shabbos should be Zulch, had to live this story. Where Varyeh Levine walked into the doctor with his wife whose leg was hurting.

19:37 The doctor asks what's going on and what does where Varyeh Levine says? Famously you all know, right? Howard L We're one. We're one. So that we can explain. The 600,000 letters each one as a man and a woman as one. But before we get to that, we should have asked a more fundamental question. I don't expect any of you to ever count the letters in the Torah. There are a lot. But if you did, there aren't 600,000 letters in the Torah. The Torah is just incorrect. Not even close. There are actually about half. A little over 300,000. So what's the Zora talking about? So there's different explanations. The Tanya, Tanya Shnerzam And there are letters that represent N'Kudos. If you've ever seen a Rethruch Suvah, as Hashem Yisrael Yisrael Yisrael Yichan every one of you in the right time.

21:08 So when you transliterate into Hebrew, there are certain letters that take the place of a vowel. For example, a segul, an, is represented by an an. So, the Tanah explains that even though the letters are not physically there, If you added all the letters of the vowels as well the placement that they would take that's when you'd have 16 vowels. It's one way of explaining. Ryakukam Netsky gave a different explanation. You know if you look at a letter of the Torah the letters are made up of various letters. Like an olive is a vavv with two units. Not with a mane, with a vavv and two units. So if you added all of those you know I read, I saw Sadiqim after Mamish did a calculation The translation these days with a computer, a chlesnesh, whatever it was, and so his mom is exactly 600,000 if you go like that. It's pretty incredible.

22:04 But I want to give a different explanation to that. There's a magish that talks about the letters of the Torah. In tovar amr abba amarei shlokish, ha'torish anitlil amosha, oira sh'al eish levonah, uksuva be'ish shechayrah. The Torah has a cloth that has a parchment of white fire and it's written with black fire. And we have to understand that you can't have a letter without a cloth. You can't have the letter without parchment. You need the foundation to be written on the next, consider the method says white fire. You have black fire and white fire. Every single letter has to be completely surrounded by Tanya klaf salah al-ahlulah you can't have any letters touching in the Torah or it's puzzle Every letter surrounded and that surrounding white parchment gives life to the letter and Is just as crucial is just as important and maybe that's pshat So every letter if there are 300,000 letters but there really 600,000 letters

23:38 HaYedot Talyot Hira Myakom But each of those 600,000 letters, each of those 600,000 letters we said has a man and a woman to it. Has a man, ish v'ish, and maybe we could suggest the letters, the black letters that we call the letters represents the nisham of the ish, of the man. And the Ish Levona, the White Fire, the parchment is that of the woman. In fact, by the way, you can't make this up, this ram is. If you take the Gematra of Ois, Alivov Tov, plus Klaf, Kuflamid Pei, 617, Ois plus Klaf, Exactly Gematra Ish plus Isha Ish and Isha is the oish in the cloth, is the letter in the parchment, 617. El Chassen Oish, I shall be so ish, I shall be sha'a tayvah in the right time. Each and every one of you is going to put on a white gown.

24:48 And your chassen is going to wear a black suit. Maybe it talks, I don't know how you're going to be, but the mais is going to be black. Trust me. And everything we do in Yiddish Kayit, the minot has a tamlodavar. Not just because, that's what happened. Because you're the Eish levana and your chassim will be the Eish choyra. You're the white parchment and he's the black ink. But what exactly does that mean? I want to explain it in two different ways because we understand this, if you understand this. You understand your place in choyra. Your place in Kabbalah Satorah. And for sure we'll be maisvira as we prepare for Gabbal Zatorah But we're about to enter into Lag Ba'omer the Yount of Avotairah So what does that mean for each and every one of you? On one level I believe it's the following And this will not be a Chaddish But you have to embrace and you have to believe Because sadly we live in a world that tries to confuse us To make us think that men and women should be one and the same And we're not one and the same Amish Chayyvri Yerishul Lomim And it's not better or worse that's different And it's important to embrace that and understand that Yiddish Kite has it right Of course that is right, it's the objective truth of the Rebbeinish Holy

26:09 And understand that men and women are different Both beautiful, both incredible, both equally important Tino Bayaz Yashir When we're leaving Mitzray, in the beginning of the Yemesevi Rof We're singing away And at the very end in Pajzevi Shalach, after the men are singing So the women want aid, right? Miriam leads the women in song, great, you all know this. What's the Pazek say? Very strange Pazek. That's Vatan Lahan Miriam. Miriam answers them. Sos Veros lo Ramavayam. Vatan labrida psufim in Bishalach. No one was talking. No one asked a question. What is Miriam answering? You know what she was answering? The whole purpose of Yisrael Yisrael He's already in Rashi and we understand, was in order to leave Mitzrayim to go and receive the Torah To go be Macabble the Torah The women came to Miriam and said, what does that mean to us? Should we be singing the Torahs for the men?

27:16 The men are sitting and learning Gemara, the men are sitting and learning Yeshiva We're not the ones, so is there what that we should be singing? Vatan l'hem Miriam sootz v'rahm v'rahm v'rahm v'ayyam You know what Miriam answered? Of course we should be singing. Turn around and look. Sos Verakh L'Rama Yom. You see by the mittrim, by the mittrim, the mittrim, the Egyptian, the one riding the horse and the horse that holds up that mittrim, the horse that's the foundation. They're both drowning. They're both being punished together. As one, so too the one who learns Torah and the foundation The bias has that same schaar la havdul let's sing together Let's sing because we're the foundation for our husbands for our children We're going to make it possible for them to learn Torah to connect the Torah And that's qashim and that's qadosh and that's what the white fire is That's What Parchment Is Parchment is the foundation that holds the letter. And that's just as important. You don't have the letter without the parchment. And don't take that as it sounds like a second class citizen. Chassiz shalom.

28:42 Just as gashav. Just as important. Just as important to be taking care of a home and building a home b'seimcha with khan that children could come back to and feel that and and be able to learn Torah and have a husband who you support to be able, I don't mean physically, he should be supporting you physically. I mean, I don't mean financially, I mean supporting the desire to be most significant, to wake up early, to leave late at night, to sit and learn Torah. You're the foundation. You're the white fire. And there's just as much to celebrate in accepting that role. The Damas is each and every one of you also has a deep cashier to the words of Torah itself. And of course to learn Torah is important for each and every one of you. And to live Torah and to keep the halafah and to learn Sipri Musra and Sipri Mashava and to learn Tanakh is a chiyyah for each and every one of you.

29:41 And it's something that's very real and something that's going to lift you up throughout your entire lives even as you understand what your ikurul is. So what about all that? What does that mean? Mev Tesh Temple The magad of trisk Rav avram tursk Yisrael eretzadikos yerachah The son of Rav matl of turnbull Rav naacham endel kaelish The son of Rav yitzchal gevorkah Rav avram Rav mendel We're best of friends Best of friends When they grew up they became Rebbe's and they lived far away It was a half days journey away from where they each were Rebbe's Borukah and Trisk but they wanted to stay close. What do you do if you want to stay close if you don't have WhatsApp? You know what do you do? Seriously. Remember years ago for years and years you know when WhatsApp began for I don't began already like a few years I was in I didn't want to have WhatsApp because of all the time and all that was I made the Yavon and they just had a regular phone with texting

31:09 Prangen zehu. I didn't want WhatsApp. And then I had a Talmud who ran away from his parents. He left this whole note on his wall in Hebrew. He wrote this whole crazy note. Baruch Ha'em wasn't suicidal but it sounded like. He was like, I don't want to get into the details. He remember he wrote on his wall and we couldn't find him. We had no idea where he went. So I got WhatsApp in order to find him because I knew maybe he's out of the country somewhere And then you couldn't get in touch with anyone without WhatsApp out of the country and I found him through WhatsApp And he went there at the Sorol without telling anybody. He bought a ticket, went there at the Sorol. Long story now He's still sitting and learning whatever that's called another story. This was years ago Since then I realized that you didn't have WhatsApp to be in touch with Hamidim and Tambi Doh to people in their Sorol So that was it since then I had WhatsApp, but it's a true story. There's a few more details that we can't talk about But anyways, I'm Avon Yavon So what do you do? They decided they made a pact that every week they're going to write letters to each other. Every week they're going to write letters to each other.

32:20 And every year at Shabbos, early in the morning, Rav Mendel would sit and write a letter, it'd take him a long time, and he had his trusted Gabbai Moesheleh would take a half day's journey. He'd set up very early Friday and he'd bring it to Vorka, sorry, he was, Mendel would send it to Rav Avotursky who was in Triska. And the Triska would open the letter and he'd be crying, reading this letter every week and he'd sit and with tears coming down his cheeks, take a good half hour, write a letter back, and he'd deliver back and forth for years this went on. And every week when Mishael was carrying the letters, he had a lot of curiosity like what's He really wanted to open it up and read them, but obviously he had respect for it. It was ready to do it. And one week he was so curious, he got the best of him, and he went off. He made sure very carefully to open it up so he'd be able to seal it again, as Rebbe wouldn't know. And he opened up the letter, and it's blank.

33:24 It's blank. He couldn't believe his eyes. And he brings it and he still delivers it. He delivered it to Rav Avram and he was very mad, very upset. He's spending every Friday of his life delivering blank pieces of paper. So he wants to see what happens and he delivers it and Rav Avram goes and he's crying, just like normally looking at it crying. And he spends a while with a piece of paper to give back a letter. He says back a letter. He didn't take him long on his journey, just when he's quickly a little bit out and he has to check and he opens up and it's also blank. He couldn't believe what he saw. And he gets back to Zareb, or he gets back to Machmendel. And this was Shabbos, he didn't say a word at first, but the whole Shabbos, he was aggravated, he was sad.

34:25 And Mathe Shabbos, the Rebbe, saw and knew what was going on. He probably knew the whole story. Rosh Hashem Ha'vam Tov V'al story And he pulls Moshul aside and says, What's wrong? You look sad, O Shabbos. At that point he says, I can't hold back anymore. Rebbe, you're sending me every week. I'm sorry, I apologize, I know it was wrong. I opened the letters, blank pieces of paper! What's going on? I'll read you the way it said, how he said it. R'Mendel did not flinch. The Torah explained as black letters written on white parchment. The black letters represent the words that are expressed, the mitzvos, the laws, the morals, the love Hashem has for the Jewish people. The white, the blank spaces, have contained the messages that are much deeper. This is how Hashem expresses his love for us, which is so great and which bursts forth to such an extent that it cannot possibly put into words.

35:19 Rementalize welled up with tears as he looked at his shamish maishel, you must understand. When I correspond with my dear friend, we usually express our words through black letters. This week, however, our message was so deep, so intense, this week we wrote the white parchment. We expressed an emotion that transcends letters. That's each and every one of you. That's Nosham Tzikaniyos. It's true, there are all different types of halachos, mitzvitzes, zeshis, nangarv and ashim, pitturos. You don't have the same fee of entalmat Torah. We men, we're not as holy. We're not as emotional. We don't have the same bino. We don't have it that you have. So we need that. That type of avodah. But the deeper depth, the emotional connection that you guys have and that you'll give over to your children and you'll share with your husbands. That's the white parchment, that's what you're being macabbled, so much deeper, so much, it's incredible.

36:19 That's the panimias at Torah. That's the Torah of Shim. That's Lag Ba'omer. And if the chassidus Rebbe's don't do it for you, I just want to read you one last idea. And these are the words of the Rav, of Salavaychik. So whatever world you come from, it's all one. Whatever world you come from it's all one. Salah Vaychik, he wrote this, he said this over, he wrote it I believe. It was written but it was originally a haspid to the mother of his oldest son-in-law, Rebbe Sint Rebbechah Torski, but he was talking about his own mother. Listen closely Chavra, if all we did together was to read this for you I believe there's nothing more kadosh. Try to make copies for everybody I should have already because this is what What is the difference between these two Mesorahs? What is your Torah Simechah? Let us explore what learns from the Father and what learns from the Son of God.

37:47 One learns from the mother. One learns much from the father. How to read a text, the Bible or the Talmud, how to comprehend, how to analyze, how to conceptualize, how to classify, how to infer, how to apply. One also learns from father what to do and what not to do. What is morally right and what's morally wrong. Father teaches the son the discipline of thought as well as the discipline of action. Father's tradition is intellectual, a moral one. That is why it's defined with mussar, Mi'anyone Deyoma I use to watch her arranging the house in honor of a holiday. I use to see her recite prayers. I use to watch her recite the Sadra every Friday night, and I still remember the nostalgic tune. I learn from her very much. Most of all, I learn that Judaism expresses itself, not only in formal compliance with the law, but also in living experience. She taught me that there's a flavor, a scent and warmth to Mitzvos. I learn from her that the most important thing in life, to feel the presence of Almighty and the gentle pressure of His presence, The shabbos' hand resting upon my fraile shoulders Without Her Teaching, which quite often were transmitted to me in silence, I would have

39:21 grown up as soulless being, dry and insensitive. The Lords of Shabbos, for instance, were passed on to me by my father. They are part of the Musa Ravichah. The Shabbos, as a living entity, as a queen, was revealed to me by my mother as part of Taurus Yimechah. The father knew much about Shabbos, the mother who lived the Shabbos, experienced her presence The father's taught generations how to observe the Shabbos The mother's taught generations how to greet the Shabbos How to enjoy your 24 hour presence The Father Teaches Eish Cholera The Black Fire The Mother Teaches Eishlavonah The White Fire The feel, the scent, the flavor, the warmth We're one. Eishvih Eish's Osten Klaf And each and every one of us are going through your maisvira and we're going to be macabel Torah again. And we're going to have a lot of boimera yon tovim celebration, the continuity of Torah today.

40:21 Don't ever forget what it is to each and every one of you. You're the foundation for your husbands, for your children, but you're much more than that. You're the sense, you're the flavor, you're the emotion, you're the feeling. You're the mussar, you're not the mussar of Ikhri, you're the Torah of Simechah. And it says, Shemamini, you have to listen to Musavichah, al-Titosh, do not forsake. Tawari Simecha. So, that's G-d's Baruch Hichan every one of us. We're going to have a Heilug Yantav V. Lag Ba'omer, Heilug Yantav Sh Go over to your children, to your husbands, to build a bias full of symptom brochors. Kona, Konshed the Secret that many years ago on a base, Medish and Queens, we learned together. It's come out 20 years. 20 years. How old are you?

41:55 I don't know. I don't know if what our reaction would have been if somebody would have come to us and said 20 years later we'd be here. The Hemis is that I owe Rav Cohen a tremendous debt of gratitude, not only for the Torah that we learned in that time, but because of the conversation that we had in that kufa of our lives really we were learning halacha together. We had a conversation about the, I don't even I don't know if you remember this, but the nature of Phthymias Ha'Tairah and the need for people in this generation to be learning a different type of Torah. And I was at that time coming from a, I would not say just a Litvisha background, but a Misnagdisha background. And I was not interested in the world of Chassidus on any level. I didn't know what any of the words meant, I didn't know how to communicate those ideas or listen to them And Rav Cohen was coming from a much more robust, rich background in this area And he said you should come with me to Teshai's Stearns House Because there was a Rebbe who was coming who was not famous at the time

43:28 And he would come to Teshai's Stearns House just a stone's throw away from here And his name is Erefraim Waxman And there was maybe 10-15 of us sitting around the dining room table in Woodmere with a refined waxman. And I remember being so captivated and so taken in by the allness of that Torah. And in many ways, the journey that I've been on since then is so much different perhaps than the journey that I would have been on. My Chavrousa Nhat shared with me a whole new world of Torah and so Although it's taken us 20 years to get together to do this It's certainly appropriate that we're here together on Masei Shabbos and especially a stone's throw away within the within the fences of Iskodesh where we sat so many times P'nimias Ha'atarah is thrown around today. It's very often a misunderstood word. It doesn't mean the inside Torah. A very dear Ha'avar of mine and a tremendous tammukhahem.

44:55 But somebody who's not moved by this type of Torah, he asked, said, I don't understand what this word, Panimia Satorah, means. What does it mean, Panimia Satorah? I know of Torah. I don't know Panimia Satorah. It's Panimia Satorah. It's like people say a vort today and they go, I'll share with you Panimia Satorah. I don't know if they say a Rashi. Like, is that Panimia Satorah? I don't know if it's Rashi. Does it for it to be Pinnim Yisrael? Does there need to be a Gematria? Does it need to be a story? A beautiful story. But what constitutes a Rebbe in Mevaseret said, I want to share with you Hasidah Shemaisah. And then he told a story about the Chavitsra'im. Is it called Pinnim Yisrael if it's from the GRA? Is it called Pinnim Yisrael if it's from the Hsamsayfir? What makes something Pinnim Yisrael?

46:23 There's some of the Torah that we learned this Shabbos to bridge the gap between this week and Lag Ba'omer In the coming weeks, Talmah Tintayrah as Rav Cohen already mentioned, Lag Ba'omer has the b'chinnu, the haskalah, the Nitzites already of Kabbalah Satorah is already present on Lag Ba'omer which is coming up, Habbalah in L'Tayvah So in this week's parasha we see that it says, Emor Vamartu, I'm sure everybody heard a million drossos, the Shabbos on Emor Vamartu. Rashi says, lahazr gedaylamalaktannim. We have an obligation, the kohanim have an obligation to teach their children that they can't become tamei meis, that they're kohanim, that there's something unique about them. And there's a double lotion of Emor Vamartu. So what's the difference between Emor Vamartu? The Sefir Yitzi Ro, one of the earliest, if not the earliest, Kabbalistic texts that we have, says that there's three Yisraudes to everything in this world.

47:36 Eish maim Yeruach. Of course we all grow up knowing that there's really not three Yisrodos, there's four Yisrodos. There's Eish maim Ruachan offer. So, if Moshe Kertaverro, the Rammak, one of the great mikubalim, explained that Afar, the fourth Yisrael, the fourth fundamental element that makes up creation, is not listed in Sefer Yitzi Roh because Sefer Yitzi Roh was expressing the revealed elements of this world, Ishma'im and Ruch. But Afar is the element that makes up all other elements. And so in Sefer Yitzirah it was only expressing the three elements of creation that we see. But of course, offer is the, it's not the quintessential, but it's the essential element that makes up all other elements. There is an even deeper element, which we're not going to discuss tonight, but there's a deeper element called huli. The Ramban mentions an element that even makes up offer, but that's not for tonight.

48:42 So listen to this verse, Talib Abi Shiraib Yisrael Shabbos Yagan Oleynu speaks this out, It's in other places also. That emor is Rashi Tevos Eishma'im in Ruach. And when Hakadosh Baruch Hu instructs the Kohanim to teach their children, he says emor. What do they have to teach? The halach. There's such a thing called halach. This is what we have to do. It's the revealed Torah. This is the will of God in a revealed fashion. But the transmission of Eishma'im and Ruach has to come when you have not only Eishma'im and Ruach, but there's a Marta, there's a Taf. What is that Taf adding? So if you look at a Taf, a Taf has three lines. Those three lines of a Taf represent Machshava, Dibur, and Mysl. The three levushim, the three expressions, how we all express ourselves in this world through the way we think, the way we feel, the way we act.

49:41 But in the middle of the taf there's a nakudah, there's a dah. And that nakudah represents, we'll see two things, it's really two sides of the same coin, represents anivos, humility, and it also represents the essence of all things. And that's really one movement because to be humble in Yiddishka'it doesn't mean to be self-effacing. It doesn't mean that a person walks around being a nafin. It means to be aligned with reality, the essence of all things. So humility and essence come together. Humility, the mida of Anivos, is always associated with ufer, like we say, V'naf sheikah afar lakotieh So the letter Tof says that inside of the Machshavah, Dibur, and Maisah, it is an essential point that if we humble ourselves to this essential point, it's the revelation of the truth of a thing. That the Machshavah, Dibur, and Maisah are really expressions of oneself, but there's a self that's deeper than any of our expressions.

50:47 So Emor Vamartu means as follows. Ammar is what I communicate to you. Ammarthah is expressing that which cannot possibly be expressed. It's a communication of something deeper. For example, I come in my life, I grew up five minutes from here, in a place called Harborview. Some people are from Lawrence. So I grew up in Harborview. Regular five-town skit, I went to Haftar until I was expelled from Haftar. And then, you know, you grow up in a home, my parents are balachuva, they're wonderful people. My father never had the opportunity to go to Yeshiva. So my father never really learned to block Amara. It's not because he doesn't love Hashem, he does. He just didn't grow up at the same kalim that he gave to me.

52:21 When was the first time that I saw...there's probably many examples of this, but when was the first time that I saw some expression of the essence in my home? So now, you know, now when you come to Eretz Yisrael, so you land from a beautiful dreamliner onto the tarmac of Eretz Yisrael and you come right into Bangurian, which is a palace. I'm old enough to remember when the physical plane itself was not as certainly as comfortable as it can be today. The stewardesses more or less haven't changed, but the seats were much less comfortable back then. And it used to be that you de-planed not into a tunnel that takes you right into the airport, but it used to be, do you remember, we used to go down the stairs, And we used to get off on the hot tarmac of Eretz Yisrael And I was eight years old and it was my first time ever going to Eretz Yisrael And my father is leading us down the stairs and you're carrying your carry-ons on them, a very little boy And my father gets down on his hands and knees and he kisses the ground of Eretz Yisrael And he says to me, this is what we do when we come to Eretz Yisrael We kiss the ground of Eretz Yisrael and we got down and we kissed the ground of Eretz Yisrael

53:44 I think today, if I'm not incorrect, I think when they bring the Nefesh B'Nefesh flights, and they don't bring them to the tarmac, they don't bring them to the area that we have. You still get off and you kiss the ground at the very Tzisrael. The Nefesh B'Nefesh flights, I think, still have that. Chaval, that we have such a modern airport, Chaval that we have such an updated airport, because you girls, when you came to the area at Tzisrael, I imagine it would be very strange if you kissed the that metal runway that they have it's not because it's not sanitary just because it would be a strange thing to do a child grows up seeing his father kiss the ground of Eretz Yisrael it communicates not the halakhah it communicates the essential point of the halakhah it tells us that there's that there's a commander behind the The Commandment. I think today that Baruch Hashem were doing a much better job trying to communicate these things.

54:48 I remember when I was in high school I went to Rambam. I don't know if any of you have ever been in Rambam, but the shul in Rambam downstairs in the old, before they moved buildings. So there was like a wall. The wall had like these crooked slats. And so you wanted to get a seat against the wall so that during divining you could fall asleep. But you didn't want to get a seat that was by the crooked slats because then you know it's like you want a seat on the plane that's right next to the wall of the plane. You don't want to sit by the window where you're sort of falling into the window. So you have to get the right seat. So I was very makvit to come early to Davening so that I could get the right seat so that I could fall right asleep. But I was always on time so I got a good grade.

55:37 However we were talking during Davening I had a very sweet Rebbe and I don't remember when we were talking, we were talking even in the middle of Shmonash, I don't remember. And the Rebbe came over with a saver because there are some revayim they snap at you. Do you know this move? Like when people are talking they think it's a good idea to... Oh, I'm sorry, I should serve Hashem, I apologize. As if that's somehow going to work. So this Rebbe was a very good Rebbe, he was a very sweet man. We Pasha tortured him and he came over with a sefir, one of these like, telus for him. Remember he sat me down and he said to me, Matt, I grew up as Matt Berg, he said, I don't know if you know, but it's usir to speak during Davening at this time. And as a 15 year old mukhutz, if I looked at him, I'd say, you know what's sad?

56:25 You really think that this is going to help? You really think, like, you think the problem is that I'm like, I don't know that it's user to talk in Davening at this time. The problem is not that I don't know it's user to talk during Davening, the problem is if you've been paying attention I haven't been Davening. And why should I Daven? And I wasn't, it wasn't like a, it wasn't like a why should I Daven, I don't believe in God thing. It was like a, I'm just not holding in that space in my life. And what I was really saying, and maybe I didn't have the words to articulate it back then, is I'm just not going to read the words of a book every single day. I'm just not going to do that. There was a failure on a systemic level, and I think probably a lot of us grew up with this. There was a failure on a systemic level. We did an awesome job at communicating the Ammar, all the halachas, all the gamaras, to learn lambdas. I grew up with all of those things.

57:17 The thing that I was missing was the Rebbanesh alone, which seems to be important if you're speaking about a religion with a God. And there was no communication of that whatsoever. There was no seeing a father get down and kiss the tarmac in the everyday experience of Yiddish kite in my life. And when Rav Cohen was reading from Rav Saloveitchik, before he knew there was this experience today, Rav Saloveitchik has this like cerebral God, you know, who came up with these massive hudushin. If you speak to the talmidim that were there, the Sheer was alive, there was a vibrancy, there was a passion, there was a clear communication of the messorah that they were learning it wasn't just a Rashi but they were with Rashi himself in the Sheer. When we speak about Pneimias Attara what we mean to say is the communication of the essence of the matter. I once heard from Muvweinberger that he said, I think he said this many times since, I once heard from Muvweinberger that he said that a couple came to his office.