Tanya - Second Perek - Part 3

2:42 Why didn't just God snap His fingers to all this why does it have to be because remember this is a chain reaction This is a Seder Isholoshos So the top of Azzilas right the top of Azzilas I'm sorry the bottom of Boriea is The top of Bria is connected to the bottom of Atzilis, right? The top of Bria, the bottom of Bria is connected to Yisrael and so on and so forth. Why does it have to have a chain reaction where one explodes next to another? The word Olam means world, but it also means He'lam, which means hidden. And here's the catch. The biggest thing in all of creation is free will. How does free will come into being? Free will comes into being when you diminish not the truth, but the perception of the truth, then you have free will. So for example, right now if Mikey was holding a knife in his hand, could he stab me? And I am not asking you physically. I'm not asking you if his arm could go like that. I'm saying, could Mikey right now be a Why can't he?

3:53 Because he is not going to stab me, right now. He is going to stab me in the stomach. No, no, of course not. And if he could, what would that say about him? That would be crazy. Why can't he? The reason is because Mikey doesn't perceive me as a threat. And so there is no reason for him to stab me, okay? And so what Mikey is doing by not stabbing me, is he saying the truth of Rebburg's I hope that's what he's saying. Yeah, his free choice is diminished. Correct. I do not have the capacity right now to murder a man. He does not have the enough choice, does he? I don't have, no, no, saying it's not because it's impossible. It's free choice is a real human activity, right? The truth is that he doesn't deserve to be stabbed. I know that so clearly that I don't have the capacity to hurt. Does that make sense?

5:12 But now let's say the truth is in flux. For example, maybe I know something to be true intellectually, but I can lie to myself and sort of hide the truth. What would be an example of this? Let's say I'm on a diet, right? All Rabbi Masha'ulim ultimately come back to diets, right? Ok, so I'm on a diet. Now I know that if I eat that piece of cake, what's going to happen? Especially if you're a sugar guy. You're going to gain weight and you're going to want more cake. So for me, a serving size is 9x13. 1-10, that's a serving size. You see, every fig newtons are meant to be eaten by the sleeve. Stelladoro Swiss Fish Cookies are meant to be eaten by the sleeve. You don't have one or two. You have as many as you can possibly get inside. Oreos. You open it up and it goes right in. Now, Fensi's looking at me and he's saying, Rebbe, that's brain damaged.

6:11 Why would you ever do that? Good. Now, the reason he won't do that is because the truth for him is very apparent. So to eat like that would be beneath your dignity. But for me, who struggles with his weight, I'll lie to myself. It's just one piece. I'm going to skip a meal. I'm going to go to the gym. I will tell my, you know, I've never gone to the gym, right? Not like, not never, like two or three times in my life I've been to the gym, but I'm not going to the gym I don't like working out. I mean, maybe Roy will get me into it, but probably not, right? Because I know how to lie to myself, right? So I'll tell myself it's just one piece and then a tin of brownies later I'll be like that was delicious, right? But obviously that's disgusting, right? So my perception of the truth for whatever reason when it comes to food is skewed, right?

6:59 Well, let's take an example. That's for all of us. Let's say this halach in the Torah that intellectually We know to be true. I know it's the right thing to wake up and go to that. I know it's the right thing I could wake up for my flight if I had a flight at seven o'clock in the morning I wouldn't miss it, right? The guy in Yeshiva once said to me is I just can't wake up. He went to YU. He played baseball You know what time practices and YU for the baseball teams five o'clock in the morning He was waking up for 5 o'clock in the morning practice. I said to him, how did you do that? I thought you can't wake up. He goes, I guess you can wake up when you want to. Right? Now he knows that the right thing to do is to wake up for Shabbos. He knows it intellectually and yet... Why? Because he doesn't want to. It's not so simple. He wants to want to, but he doesn't actually.

7:45 If you have time to go to your office, there is a part of him that wants to. Then there's this bias. There's the gap between the thought and action because the emotion is blocking. This is what's critical. If you want to have free choice, meaning as follows, if you want to have free choice, you have to have the ability to cover up the truth. In other words, like this. Let's say Tovia, let's say God came and he was here in this room right now, obviously he is but we don't perceive him, but let's say you saw that. Let's say God The presence of this room was so clear and so obvious you would not be able to sin. And here's what's really important. Sin is the best thing that ever happens to our relationship with God. Because if we couldn't do an Aveiro, then we wouldn't have free choice.

8:32 And if you don't have free choice, then you are not present in the relationship. If you don't have the ability to divorce your wife, it's not impressive that you chose to stay married. If we serve God because we were compelled to by the truth and we didn't have any choice to ignore that truth, is it particularly impressive that we choose to follow the truth? No, of course not. So what does God do? He creates a situation where He Himself is hidden to allow us to have the ability to betray Him. Sam. So the whole point of that is? Yes. The point is, just like in any relationship, right? In any relationship, my capacity to be in a relationship is to overcome that struggle. What I need to say is as fathers, you get married, it's all good and fine in the beginning, and then all of a sudden it's not so funny.

9:34 And maybe your wife does something that you don't like that she does, and it's really grating on your nerves. Maybe you tried to address it with her, but she's not getting it, right? It's like now there's a headlamp, there's something hidden in the relationship, right? Maybe there are aveiros in the relationship that are preventing the union in the relationship. So what would you say at that point? Double down. Right? Overcome those struggles, find each other in the darkness. The single most powerful child's game that exists is hide and seek. Why? It's the most exciting game in the world. But there's a vulnerability. What's the vulnerability in hide and seek? So maybe I just stop singing? That's right. The vulnerability in hide and seek is what I used to do to my old friend. Oh, it wasn't such a friend. It was a kid that we used to bully. It was terrible what we did to him.

10:22 And I'm embarrassed to say this, but I was a little kid. It was a kid who was like a little weird so we used to bully him. So in shul, we used to say, all right, let's play hide and go seek. Right? So he would be part of that. And we would play a couple of rounds because that's part of the trick. We'd play a couple of rounds and then we'd be like, Okay, you found me once you were by now go hide and then we would all leave Shul and sometimes 45 minutes would go by an hour would go by and he thinks I'm in the greatest hiding spot of all time And then when he peeks his head out the shul is empty. There's nobody there. We all left, right? Because the most vulnerable thing you can do in hide and seek is not seek the one that's hiding Same exact thing with Hashem Geth. This is a giant game of hide and go seek. All four of these worlds Shabbat Al-Bukhir The possibility of the relationship is employee. God, so to speak, is vulnerable because He's opened up to the possibility that we will just ignore Him and do whatever we want. You understand?

11:45 But in the middle, it doesn't bother Him. Well, it's not so clear, right? Because the mistake that Aaron just made, and it's a really important one, is sometimes we make God so perfect that what we do is we lose God. Stesaschir Yeah but he's perfect, which means that he's perfectly sensitive also. And I don't mean sensitive in the way that you and I are sensitive. What I mean to say is as follows. Don't turn God into an idol of perfection. Right? So the major difference between Avram Ofino and the rest of the world is that what Avram Ofino did is he said God is not a what, God is a who. Okay? And the reason why that's so important is that when you speak about God as a what, so then it could be idolatrous. Right? If we speak about God as a personality, which that's how the Torah describes Him on purpose, that God does get angry, right, and He does care infinitely about what we do, then when we stop seeking Him, He's not bothered in the sense that He's less like my friend Avi, who now feels like bullied and needs to go to therapy, right?

12:52 He's not bothered in that sense. He's actually bothered, like infinitely bothered. So when we don't do a mitzvah, it's not just like, yeah, we didn't do a mitzvah. The whole purpose of the world, the reason why he created us, we just ignored that. Now that's what God wants. God wants us to have the ability to ignore it because otherwise there's no free choice and then there's no relationship. But there's no doubt, he's bothered. Eitel Tadeh, like, oh, so much of your little humans, then you keep a duration. It would've been great if they did, as long as they did, but then I'm gonna make another one more. Right. You could say that. But that would be me saying this to my kid, right? And I once heard a comedian say this. That he looks at his kid and he goes, get in line, otherwise I'll kill you. I could make another one. Right? I've made you before. I'll make you. I brought you into this world. I'll take you out.

14:03 You are not infinite and you don't have an infinite amount of time to make choices. You gotta eventually get the right role. That's really sick. That's really sick. If you think the only reason I'm not murdering my kids is because otherwise I'm running out of time. No, what I'm saying, like normally you're making a gig. Yeah, but kinda that's what you're saying, right? No, I hear what you're saying. No, you're charging an announcement. You're parenting and God's parenting. And while I understand that there is a one-way relationship that can be comparable to T that there is a very real difference in the shoulders that God is not contricted by time and or possibility of getting that infinite amount of children. There are some things you can do about it. What is the matter? What you're suggesting is, and this is why it is so crazy what you are suggesting.

14:51 I know you are playing the devil's advocate to get the answer but I appreciate it, you do that. What you're and that's why I'm saying it's crazy what you're suggesting is that? Because he can make more of us The ones that he made are relevant and here's why that's crazy if I'm infinite then whatever I make matters infinitely You understand so when we make things from the infinite they really matter so for example when you marry a woman and it's It's transcendent, right? It's one infinite connecting to another infinite. The union of the souls, it really matters when that woman says something that hurts you. As opposed to a random woman on the street who just says something to you and you're like, I don't really care about you. Here's what's really important. Hate is the flip side of love. So when somebody is really bothering you, what is that telling you? This person matters enough to me that they're really bothering me.

15:55 Right? So, I have something... So, like, yeah? Hitler. Are those your law? Yeah, in a sense. So that's... By the way, everyone goes to Hitler in this motion. I don't know why. Everyone goes to Hitler. It's like the worst person in the country. Right, you don't love him. Right. So the truth is, I don't hate Hitler. I don't really hate Hitler. Here's what I do with Hitler. And all of us do this. We nothing him. And he's... In difference is opposite of the world, right? We're not indifferent to him, though. We care about him a lot. No, you don't. In fact, you've never had boiling rage. Shabbat teshuva m That feeling is because, is because you're so close with them, the feeling of betrayal is so powerful. Whereas there's a person in my life who's kind of like, not like really the brightest bulb. I'm not going to say that nicely.

17:10 That's why the breakups are so hard. Right, exactly. This person who was in my life, I don't really care so much about, said a really not nice thing to me, and I was like, okay. Like, it didn't really matter, it didn't register, I didn't get upset. Why didn't I get upset? I don't really care about that. But if somebody I really care about now wants to break up with me, it's so painful. And that's why when there's those bad breakups, it's like the worst thing in the world, right? It's like it was mutual. Stop lying. It's never mutual, right? So it's the same exact thing here. When God creates us, because it comes from his infinity, because he is infinite, it infinitely matters. You can't separate those two things. You can't say, An infinite god created something that he thinks is purely empathetic. That doesn't make sense. Isuzoum Eretzhiyam is not half-assing.

17:57 Right. Because it wouldn't make any sense. How could you look at something and say, like, as people, like, does God really care if I do Bohrair? Well, why would you think an infinite god wouldn't care about small details? If he's infinite, don't all details matter infinitely? Right? Yeah, Tovio. That idea of vulnerability is... That's exactly right. It's your vulnerability that's actually the portal in... Gavra stay with me, guys. It's your vulnerability that's the portal into his life. That's vulnerability is the birthplace of connection. That's what R'sal W'Hijit means. It wasn't, not necessarily our vulnerability, but we just started wondering if we had faith or a person. And he said that the reason we're able to detect Hashem or wear experience with him is because Shabbos Tereus is the ultimate one. Exactly right. Our vulnerability and his vulnerability meet. Our loneliness is vulnerable for us. His loneliness is his vulnerability. That's what I mean to say. It's lonely because we can stop playing high and no seek. That portal, when each of us feel lonely, we're touching each other's loneliness, that's where the relationship is born.

19:11 I disagree, I think that this is, this description is what creates loneliness in the world. What do you mean lonely? The hiding of truth is lonely. I'll give you an example. Lonely doesn't mean alone. I'm the only one of me. There's no one else that's like me. Even if I have a twin, it's an identical twin. Still unique, right? I'm the only one of me. There is no one else that's like me even if I have a twin, even if it's an identical twin. It's still unique, right? And so a person could feel deeply connected from that place of loneliness. So it would be like, I'm trying to think of a good example. This is like right now it's very high. I'm trying to think of that and bring it down for me. Think about it like this. If two people went through something together, and they were the only ones that experienced it, And it was like traumatic, right? It was like a big deal that they experienced that. How close will they feel afterwards?

20:37 Really close. Yeah, it's like a, one of that things, that thing is all over the community. Right, it bands the community together because in their loneliness, right, in their vulnerability, they find each other. And it's the same thing with God. Most people are sitting and complaining like, I don't see God. Come on. You gotta think deeper about it. Of course you don't see God. That's, The whole reason you don't see God is that you could find Him. Right? And that's that loneliness of like, I'm all alone. Like a person could go out to like the stars. I don't know if you guys have ever done this. You go out to like a place that there's just crazy stars. You just sit in the desert. You think to yourself, it's crazy how small I am in the universe. Right? Like I'm a nothing murderer. I was here, I'm here for a couple of years. I'm here for eighty, ninety, a hundred years in this world. Right? And then I will be gone, returning to the dust of the earth. And even in this earth with the Shabbat

21:56 I don't think so I don't think but... At the moment, just because we never discovered aliens, let's just assume they don't exist, right? Because we have no proof that they do. So think about what that means when we believe in God. Then you're alive by definition. It's meaningful. Rafi. If free will is only to choose a true one or a not true option, there's sometimes where you're at the crossword where neither option is like, it's not like you're lying to yourself, sometimes it's just equal. And by the way, what do you feel in those situations where you're like, I really don't know what to do, I can go this way or that way? Well, I feel like deep down I knew it was a true one, but I didn't feel like that, I just didn't know which one to pick. So what was the feeling when you had, I knew like, I could see it both ways and I don't know which way to go. What was the feeling that you had? How uncomfortable were you?

23:14 Pretty much. But it's not, yeah, I mean if they're both good options, I don't know. No, but it's ain't. But when you're, what the Chazaq, the Pascam Mishlai says, ein simchu, there's no joy, kah taros asvegos. Like removing doubt. See, when you're in doubt, it's painful. Right? Even if both options are great, and I'm sure you sounded something like this in 8th grade. I know both options will be good but I just don't know where to go, right? And it's just like, there's a heaviness to it because my choices are not clear, right? I can't get clarity, so how do I make that choice? Once you get that clarity it becomes obvious to you. Let's say you went and visited one of the schools and you're like, no, that's it. That's where I like, I just felt connected. I saw the Rebbe in there, I saw the guys there, that's where I'm supposed to be. So then it's Zoray and then it floats.

24:00 Until that point, it's very uncomfortable. I'll give you another example of this. Have you ever met a Rebbe in your life that maybe he got along with a lot of people, but for you it was like that Rebbe really spoke to your soul. Like you felt like when you were talking to him, like he gets me. How great is that feeling? Why? What's great about it? The truth of your vulnerability has been embraced. When you meet someone that sees you and connects to you is the greatest feeling in the world. I had that you should know. Is that why marriage is so important? Yeah, exactly right. It's exactly right. There's no logical reason why that Rebbe gets you. No, because that Rebbe, as great as he is for you, he's not great for another person. He's okay for another person. He might be good for a lot of people. But if you feel, and if you in that room, you feel like there's something like here, like, yeah, that's my guy, and that's my Rebbe, that's my guy. That's special. That's a special relationship. Those relationships should be cherished. I sometimes have them even on an interview. Even on an interview, I'll sit down with a guy and I'll be like, yeah, this is going to be a guy. This is a tiny guy. Yeah?

25:21 Let's just say that you meet someone on a transcendent's level and you get sent a request. But let's just say one of those other three things you just don't click. Is that not a perfect relationship? So then we would be curious why. Because when a transcendent relationship is transcendent, we would expect that your thoughts, emotions and actions will all align. But that doesn't happen. Why? Because the lack of truth covers it up, right? So I know it's a transcendent relationship, but somehow my actions don't don't mean as much to her as I would've wanted them to and No matter what I do, it's not enough, right? Or emotionally, why do I feel so disconnected from those persons? I know that it's transcendent, right? But like, somehow I just don't feel connected. What's going on? I'm going to be transcendent, though. All the others are going there.

26:19 No, it's the opposite. If I've got action, emotion, and thought, it's not necessarily transcendent. Because, for example, you can date a girl. I'll give you the opposite example. This happened to my wife, a very close friend. So, you okay? So my wife's very close friend David Agai, I know both of these guys that she dated, and these guys are like exactly the same, okay? You put them on a piece of paper, like you got a shittahp resume, you put these two guys on a piece of paper, they're exactly the same. They went to the same schools, they were the same type of person in terms of their personality, they even played some of the same sports, okay? These were like two Yeshivaldi guys growing up, okay? K? They both, they all got older, they got a little bit more religious. Okay, now they're in like the shit-up dating scene. Okay?

27:12 And so my wife's friend is dating one of these guys, and everything on paper is perfect. Their values are the same. They like doing the same things. Right? Everything was perfect, except for one thing was messed up. What was the only thing that was messed up? She's like, I can't marry him. I can't marry him. And why not? She said, God, he's not my husband. So she called her Rebbe. She said, I don't know what to do. She's like, he's perfect. So the Rebbe said, he's not perfect. You know why? Because you don't want to marry him. She said, but on paper it works. But you don't marry a piece of paper. The next guy she dated was this other guy. And this guy and my wife were dating. My wife and I were dating at the same time that she was dating. So she tells me this guy whatever from whatever Yeshiva she tells me a name. I didn't know him by that name I knew him by his English name now unbeknownst to me at the same exact time

28:43 Sarla was having a conversation with this guy she's dating and he said oh my friend Elise is dating this guy right now Who's she dating? Oh this guy mortified. He didn't know me as mortified He really is mad so the two of us are dating and neither of us knew that we were dating the other person's really close friends So finally, my wife says to me, she goes, it's really exciting because they're getting engaged. I said, that's awesome. Where's the thing? She's like, in his house. She tells me the address and I'm like, what are you talking about? You told me she's like, yeah, I said this is what she did. I'm like, oh, that's not him. He's whatever. He's this guy who knew forever, right? So what changed? Now, she's marrying this guy. As the same as that guy on paper. Literally the same as that guy. What's the difference?

29:30 First one. She wanted to marry you. That's the only difference. You understand? So when there's transcendence, we would expect that you all line up. But just because the actions, emotions, and thoughts are there doesn't mean it's a transcendent relationship. So can transcendence be there, if you are not? Yeah, and that's what's great about relationships. I know for no logical reason that this is the transcendent one. And yet, even though I have no idea why, right, I now have to work to put these things back together. That's what it looks like when relationships fall apart. Mike? How can that be if they're all connected? Because, and this is exactly what I'm trying to teach you guys this year, because that's what free choice means. Free choice means that there is... What we've discussed here is a block. All of these things have a block. Every single one of them has a block. And that block is the truth, right? If it was just the truth, it would go straight down. But there's a block.

30:31 The same way you might know that it's absolutely the right thing to wake up for Shabbos. Not because of any fancy sophisticated El Shabbos you went to, but just because you know. People sign you. Tanya Rebbe Nitzotzos Rav Baruch al Yisrael Yisrael Yisrael Yisrael Yisrael Yisrael Yisrael This is a very simple thing. If you think deeply about it, there's nothing in your life that doesn't follow this formula. It's what I know deeply to be true, what's transcendently true, what's meaningful in a way that's beyond anything logic could describe, and now how do I get to align my thoughts, emotions, and actions with that thing? If I have a job and I know this job is meaningful and important, how do I make sure I'm consistent in doing it every single day? It's with my children, my wife, my job, every time I get up to give a shiur, it's all the same. You thought? Right. Right.

31:41 Yeah, but you said like, I don't know what you think of this. Like, I'm trying to figure out what we're going to ask for. Yeah. Well, that's what you said earlier, like free choice diminishes from the truth. Free choice diminishes our thing. We have free choice because our perception of the truth is diminished. Yeah. Yeah. All right, there's people that still get offended. I know people that are speaking obviously are going around talking. They still get offended through like random people. But they're not like, they don't really like them. Yeah, and those people generally have psychological issues. They're vulnerable. You're saying it. I'm not talking about that. You're sexist on the side. No, I'm just saying it. You have to say it. I'm saying it. But if a dog barks, you won't bark back. Rava, you're telling me that if you want to illustrate some of the curses that you did.

32:34 So I'll be scared. Like I was scared. I went to San Diego and somebody called me a kank from the window of their car. I was scared. As it's been, right? I was making all the time. I was like, I'm going to take a picture of your work. I want your work done. So I'm saying if you watch, but if you do, like I'll be scared. I'm not liking the channel. Like, oh, I hate that person. Like, ugh. I never want to see that again. Yeah, Ezra. When trying to connect something, someone can add a block. Which order are you supposed to unlock? Which order? Yeah. What do you mean? Do you connect Atsilas to Bria? So there's a very important question, very important question. Guys, Ezra just asked an amazing question. I can't remember if I have the phone's away. Very important question. Ezra said, so now I'm blocked. So what should I do? Should I focus on the intellect? Should I focus on the action?

33:24 Well, there was two schools of thought on this exact issue throughout history in Judaism. Some say go for the action and what will happen is it will build back up. So if you give and you give and you give to something, the feelings will come back and you'll start to focus on it. It's something you just gotta do. Correct. And some people say the exact same thing. No. Let's focus on it. Let's think about it. Let's psychologically analyze it and intellectually analyze it. And then the emotions will come and then the actions will come. And you know what you have to do? Whichever one works for you. So both of them are true. Right? You could go after the action and then the emotion will follow or you could go after the thought and then the emotion will follow that. Both are true because both are connected. But you have to decide what works for you.

34:13 What are the blocks? Remember, could I really stay at Bensi right now? No, I couldn't. I'm proud of that. Because if I could, that would mean I'm a sociopath. Why can't I? Because the truth is clear. Once we introduce bias into the system, the truth becomes shaded. The block is always a bias. What is it? Why is there a specific block in a different world? Because all this covering up the truth, then why is that? My emotions are blocked because I said I'm like, I know there's a God but I'm so not in the mood. Sometimes I'm actually in the mood and I know it's true and still somehow I don't do. Right? So the blocks can be all over. Yeah, glad. Can you classify it as like free-choice? Yeah! Exactly right. Every one of these blocks is an opportunity for free choice. That's where they come from. So, we, everyone's like upset. Everyone's like upset. Everyone's like upset. Like everyone's upset, oh.

35:40 How come I'm blocked? But that's like getting upset in the game of hide and go seek. How come they're hiding? That's the game. If you never have an opportunity to- if you're never burnt out, then something's wrong with you. If you don't go up and down- if you're just like straight, that's weird. Not the straight part. Yeah, Rafi? Rafi. So what we said before about how you can choose whether you've put an action or thought first to apply that to Judaism. Like, if someone's struggling and they don't feel like they don't want to do anything. So one way would be to force themselves to participate in anything that they don't feel it. And then the other way would be to read on certain... That's exactly right. Sometimes a data company is just throwing that on into it and I'll hand them a book and I'll say here read this. Sometimes a shiur isn't working out for you. Let's say a specific shear isn't working out for you. Sometimes you need to switch it up. If you're not excited about the actions, let's get you into Tanya and get you involved with the thoughts and the emotions of the K-4 actions. That works.

36:55 Jullas G-d Mut lectures. Sometimes you just need to push through. It depends on the person. That's why we don't recruit. Alright. J laptop So, where you are, I don't understand a eligibel relationship with Shep, though we Eretz Karmelotor, if you have psychological issues, it's going to be very difficult to truly relate Tashaq. So, why? Why? Because it's truly difficult to communicate. It's truly difficult to communicate. So if you're going to be in your speed, you can just leave. That's block, that's block. That's right. So if that's so possible, somebody can't physically connect to these connections or all of these connections are so perfectly clear that there's no block. That we accept. Tanya Second verse of the Zebel Tanya And there are these two types of people, one for bad and single and one for good, who can't physically form a shortage. So I'm only going to answer 15% of your question, because 15% we're going to answer in the coming weeks.

38:30 The tzadik is the one I'm not going to answer, because right now you don't understand the role that the tzadik plays on a general level. So I'm going to ask you to hold off on that. But let's talk about the person who has psychological challenges. To me, that person with psychological challenges, his opportunity in the relationship is to discover Hashem through that process. So what that looks like is his follows. Let's say a person, massive anger issues. I don't mean the little anger issues that he's just got to count to ten or learn a little self control. I'm talking about a person who's clinically angry. Khemal He like snaps. So, to me, what I learned from Chassidus, and in general I think this is true, is every challenge is also an opportunity. So, what I mean to say is this follows. Let's say something terrible happened in the world of politics.

39:31 Let's say you're running for office, and now it comes out this terrible thing about you. Now you have two choices. One choice is to roll over and say, I'm not running for office because I can't possibly win. The other is, how do I choose to respond could actually propel me in the pulse. So what would it look like, for example, if something terrible came out about me? I could roll over and I could quit, or I could say, let's have a real conversation, truly vulnerable, with the nation, or with the constituency that I'm trying to get to vote for me, about what really happened. And to get up there, not as a politician, right, because you get up there and say, you're really, really, really messed up, right? And I think we've all done that, and we're all human. And if you don't want to vote for me because of that, I get it, right?

40:22 I get it. Maybe I can't earn your trust. Let's have a real conversation about when we make mistakes 20 years ago, should we be held accountable for them 20 years later? And that's what's happening in the world today. Let's take for example Antonio Brown. Antonio Brown is now being accused again of another rave charge. I don't know what he did or didn't do, but he just signed for 11 days with the Patriots and after 11 days they cut him white because another rave charge came out. We're holding him accountable, rightfully I think, for something that happened a while ago. Okay, that all makes sense to us. What about Kevin Hart? Now it's a bit that he did a long time ago and now we're going to say he can't host the Oscars. Something like that? At what point? We have kids who can't get into Harvard now because at 13 years old they posted something on their Twitter feed. So let's have a real conversation about accountability. You could take your greatest weakness and turn it into your greatest strength. So I don't believe that a person who suffers from psychological issues is cut off at all. But as long as you're As long as they're suffering, they're not going to truly be in a relationship with God because there's no sense of self. But that doesn't mean it's over. That's the greatest opportunity to have the conversation.

41:34 It's the greatest block, I'm saying. And it's the greatest opportunity. So the songwriter is going to have a discussion because my question was, are the people who are impossible to go to? Yeah, which is really really difficult. Yeah, but what I mean to say is, and as currently constitutes, it's impossible. If you have no sense of self, how could you be in a relationship? But that doesn't mean it's over. It's like that sense of self now can be discovered. And sometimes the people of the greatest sense of self had to go through those psychological challenges together. Those people then become truly connected to themselves and they become magnets of love. So somebody who was born, somebody who was born a national and was born the Muslims of south? A relationship in that case is a different type of relationship which one barf Hashem I can't understand, but that relationship looks more like this.

42:48 That's mine. Like, um... Hashem Veremah? Yeah. Like, I'll give you an example. Um, a close friend of mine. Somebody who's an alumni of his yeshiva, who is a Talmud of revising sin. His wife gave birth to a baby that has a chromosome disorder. The baby is going to die. It's not a question of when. It's not a question of if, it's a question of when. It's going to die a bit of a, the latest that it could live as a year. But it could be any day. This child is not mentally present because of this chromosomal disorder, it's just not there. It's obviously very, very, very sad for all of us. We care about him very neatly and his family is... It's hard to have a disabled child and it's hard to have a disabled sibling and we can't understand what that means. But this is like even worse because it's like it's not even going to last, right?

43:53 So what's the emotion that the parent has in that case? Like you're holding this child and it's yours and you love it, right? And it's like a transcendent relationship and it's so powerful and profound. The child is not going to live and the child is not able to reciprocate. The child is not able to make like, you know, even the faces that somebody who loves you, like children can do that. They can laugh at you and smile at you and recognize you, right? And that's like a big thing when you become a parent and you start to tickle the baby's chin and the child starts to recognize you and knows your smells, right? And it's like the child is okay being held by you, not because it can even really see you or make your out so much, but more just because it can smell you, right? So there's something so powerful about that because that's the beginning of connection. This child doesn't really have that.

44:38 So would you say that the parent doesn't have a relationship with the child in that case? Of course not. Yom Tov shabbat Tov shabbat Tov shabbat Everything is thrown away and all there is is a relationship connection. Everything is all gone. Because now it's like we don't have time for that anymore. It's just essence to essence. Right. And that's why you see people who have been fighting their whole lives and haven't spoken for 20 years and now one of them is on their deathbed. All they want is to make shawl. What's like when it's like the famous

46:00 I once had this conversation with a dad in Mevaseret who his son was already married and had this huge blow of fight and they weren't speaking and hadn't spoken for like six months and neither side was willing to give in. So the truth is the son should have given in. He should have. But he wasn't giving in. The father was on the phone with me and I said, I'm not giving in. So I said, I hear you. I asked him how old he was. He said, I'm in my 60s. Eisrael shavir g-d beva denim Tov che Somebody we're very close with. The last words he ever said to his father were, I'm sorry. The last words his father ever said to him was, the next time I see you, it'll be at your funeral or mine. And he died. The father died. And that was the last thing he ever said to his son.

47:17 That was the last thing his son ever heard from him. He said it was mine to his son. What was that? He said it was even mine to his son. Yeah, it was. It's trauma forever, but there's nothing. Did you imagine? So sometimes we get so caught up in all this stuff, and by the way, that's all of Chazaq. All of Chazaq, this is like, you can get caught up in the action and not serve God. People who are on this phone all the time are not serving God. Even the emotion you can get caught up in and not serve God. You gotta actually connect to the thing. You have a question before? I was just thinking about how you describe a sacred God. Yeah. Answer your question? Okay. Rafi, last one, and I want to... Okay, good. Now I'm going to teach you a cool thing. Davening So many of us, including myself, have trouble with formalized prayer. Formalized prayer can be really, really difficult, right?

48:11 Because saying the words of the sudur every single day, and I've got to say the same thing three times a day, it's so hard to do, right? I'm going to give you a pro tip here, okay? Davening mimics these four worlds. And actually what davening is, is traveling through these four worlds. So that by the time you get to the pinnacle of davening, you find yourself an atzivos. Let me explain. The beginning of davening starts with what? What do we start davening with? With Brahos and Karbanos. All action oriented. After that comes Sukeh Dezimra Sukeh Dezimra is kapel chav tehillot meant to evoke emotion By the way, what's the halach? The halach is if you need to skip Sukeh Dezimra to catch up you can But by the chassidim they tell you not to you know why because you want your pipes It's you and you want your pipes to be in order so better to say it all so that everything flows Then we get to Kriashma. Guys, what are we saying Kriashma? Fascinating thing Shma Yisrael Hashem m'lokino Hashem echad

49:45 After Ve'erfos Krioshma, you get to what? You get to Shmon Asher. Now what's the law, guys? Are you allowed to say Shmon Asher out loud? You're supposed to say a little bit like you are whispering so that only you can hear. Yechilu, you're whispering to yourself. That's a strange halacha, right? Yer'alik V'kodash Ha'chara is action. V'kodash Ha'chara is action. Tov tzukin is moshir. I mean, no, I think right after that is Mosh. Right after... Right after what? V'kodash Ha'chara goes to emotion. If you look at... Correct, yeah. Exactly right. Right after V'kodash Ha'chara goes to emotion. Now, let's say Mikey is standing right next to me, and I'm speaking really loudly and Mikey's here. How uncomfortable is Mikey? Have you seen him? It's not just my bad breath. It's also an obnoxious thing to do. Because if I'm right next to someone, it's okay, I'd like to be over it.

50:43 If I'm right next to someone, yeah, I'm like the Michael Scott of Rebbe, if I'm right next to someone, keep you guys awake, if I'm right next to someone, you shouldn't scream. So if you're in Anselos, if you're right next to God, what would you want to do? How would you be talking to him? Softly. Wait, how close? The halacha reflects the reality. That's why you need the halacha. To tell you that this is what's really going on. The reality is you're right next to God. How close are you? Well, if I'm whispering to Leibel, and I'm this far away, and I'm letting him speak like this. But if I'm right in the libels here and I wish for anything above the fact that only I can hear it, it's going to be obnoxious to the libels. How close are you to God in Shmonashvara? You're as close as possible. Now watch this. How obnoxious is this statement?

51:32 I say it also, so don't feel badly if you say it. Yeah? I'm so not in the mood to dove in. That's like saying I'm so not in the mood to talk to the person that I love. I'm so not in the mood to be connected to my essence. When You were talking to your Dude ay laa kab Applause You had moments to live with him.. And he was nagging you. You know what you would feel like? Last moments of nagging. No, but if you look at a family that's dealing with someone who is very ill, you always need parents, the doctors, everyone, they tell you, you have to take a break. You can't be so... For sure. No doubt about it. It's really hard to do it three times a day. But here's the thing about relationships. If you don't tend to them, they wither.

52:39 If you only talk to someone when you want to, are you really in a relationship with them? If I only daven when I'm in the mood, right, who am I in a relationship with? Not with God, I'm in a relationship with myself. You understand? So it requires doing the thing I don't want to do. And yes, I don't want to talk to my parents when they're nagging me. But I'm being a son. That's what it means to be in a relationship sometimes. I don't want to talk to my wife when she's nagging me. Agree 100%, which is why no matter how far you stray from God... Yosir That's right. But if he's a real best friend, it pains you not to be in touch with him. If it's a real best friend, it's like, I can't live without you. So I don't understand personally how long distance relationships work if the relationship is real. Because if the relationship is real, it's like, that's my wife. What's she doing on the other side of the world? You know what I mean? So if my wife chose to move back to America, I love you guys, but I'm not going to do that.

54:08 Psukeh Dzimra is the pipes, right? So I want to connect my actions and my thoughts. I need Psukeh Dzimra in order to do that. What time is it? 5.30? 5.30 is the time. I'm going to Can I get maximum 15 minutes more of your time for us to finish the perek? Let's do 15 minutes. Yeah? Okay. With all of that in mind, we're now going to be able to learn this last piece in Tanya. We're pushing through tonight, right? We're talking. How are we doing? Pushing through? Is it worth it?

55:47 V'kacham manish kaviyach habish haresh kah Nefesh Ruachan Neshom Shachol Yisrael Amalah So too when it comes to the root of every single soul and by the way when we say every single soul what we mean? All three dimensions of the soul Nefesh which was the soul in action Ruach which was the soul in emotion Neshom which was the soul in its intellect All of those all of the dimensions of the soul B'yerei dasom Yemalah dreigal madreigah as it comes down One level to another what are the levels that it's coming down through? All yedayh ish tashl sozol almost every single soul travels through these four worlds that we just spent the last two days describing Atzilos biriyah yetsira asir mechamosu yusbarach. So it starts off. Where's the soul's journey before atzilos? Where is it? It's not just in God. It's in the highest Madreigah of God in his wisdom and remember what do we say very good God and his wisdom are one K'Duch Sivaz Zazan D'Pasak Kulam Bechachm Asisa Every single soul was made with wisdom. Meaning what? It's coming from God's Ha'kham. Niss ha'vom Y'menish Nefesh Ruch neshom

57:04 How deeply connected are we to God? Yichat, that is a huge statement of the Altareba that no matter how far you fall, your Ama'arach, your Prusa' archi, your Kaushim bakalim, you've journeyed all the way from God's Chachma all the way down to the pits of where you are. You've got through all the worlds in Kosei you retain your infinite connection with God. And that's logical. Just like the same way a child is born and develops, right? Even to the toenail, right? That toenail comes from the DNA which comes from The Wisdom of that Father, that initial clash of inspiration that I'm going to have that child. Jonathan, a couple days ago you said Yidim ha-kaktos. Now it makes more sense to you? Okay, good. The Im Kosei, and nevertheless, Wow, mamishah balchassim. I'm so impressed. The Im Kosei, nevertheless, Odena keshuros umi uchodos bi'yicha niflavotzom b'mahusom v'atsmusan arishom Sheyam Shafas Chachmeilah This is unbelievable. If you look at the words of Tanya, how beautiful are the words of Tanya, especially to those Jews like

58:39 like me and you who struggle and that don't always find the strength inside to wake up for Davening or that maybe sometimes look at things that we shouldn't look at or say things we shouldn't say. Yeah What do we do with those Jews? What do we say? They are still connected and one muhadosh, they're singular W Beyichut niflev Ha'atsim with the most incredible wondrous oneness. Bey mahusan v'atsim usun areisham are still connected to that initial point of essence in God which is God's wisdom being brought down into this world. Kianikas vechayos nefeshruch on the shamosh ha'me arats. The sustenance, Peych koftalid, yinikah. You know what yinikah means to draw sustenance from? Okay. Yinnikah of the life force of your soul, Nefesh Ruch Anishama of the Amor Aksim of those low Jews, Hime nefesh ruch anishama shabbat sadikim vachacham Yom roshai b'nei Yisrael shabbad o'ranim This is a very big statement of chassidus and it goes to our connection with the Tzadik.

59:44 That's why I told Arim before that I'm not going to answer it right away because now I'm going to answer it. Remember guys we said that there's a bridge and Jews are the bridge We're a little bit godly because we have a nefesh Elokis. We're a little bit worldly Because we have a nefesh of Bahamas, so we're in two worlds guys remember that yeah now. We're souls We are walking talking souls Nefesh Ruch and the Shabbat How do those souls get sustained? How does the bridge get kept up? Well? There's a life force Tzadik

1:01:16 We want to be a Tzaddik or a Reebaar. What's that? Why is the Tzaddik? So exactly, I'm gonna answer that question right now. The point of the Tzaddik is not to go low into the world. We're gonna do that. The point of the Tzaddik is he's like the CEO. He's got to make sure that everybody's going in the right direction. He's got to make sure that everybody gets what they need in order to do it. It's not doing a job. What was that? It's not doing a job now. Depends if you're connected to the Tzaddik or not. No, I'm talking about the rest of the world. Tzedekim of our generation, then that fills us up with life, which is why sometimes when you find your Tzadik, all of a sudden your life changes. Not only because they teach you things that you didn't know, or role model a particular type of behavior, because just being near them makes you come alive.

1:02:33 That's what it means to be connected to Tzadik. There are 36 hidden Tzadikim in the world, but there could be more than that. But remember, there's very few tzedikim in the world, and every generation, because these souls are so rare, God spread them out, as we said throughout every generation, to make sure that every generation has some. So again, I don't play the game of who's a tzedik, who's not a tzedik, I'm not here to play that game. But when you're with that tzedik, it's like, that's like you feel, you come alive. That's why My Rebbe is My Tzedik, right? Parnas is My Rebbe. And when I'm with him, it's like, not only can he teach me taira, and of course he does, And not only can he role model for me like what is appropriate behavior and he absolutely does that too. But just being near him. It's like an illuminating experience. So you're saying he doesn't have like an acre of vishal and you know?

1:03:21 For me! How do you tell? Oh, for you. Yeah, meaning I can't tell you in Shemaiah what's going on, but I can tell you for me what's going on. So, when you find Yor Rebbe, you'll be like, that's my Rebbe. And you'll, and you'll wanna be kashortein because the more that you're kashortein, the more it's like, you're connected. Okay, let's take some questions. Togit. Two things. When did this idea of the bridge come from? The bridge is the concept, because remember we have anepha Shabbat HaM meaning Brooklyn and Staten Island, but what if we're to be a bridge? The part of that relationship is the holy part. Yeah, that's a good question. I was going to say, use the Judeo-Dulphin rule. What was that? Well, God and God and the world, right? If a bridge has to be, let's just stay with the metaphor for a second. If a bridge is not in Brooklyn, it can't be a bridge to Brooklyn. Right? It has to have a bridge. Right. And the Jew is the bridge.

1:04:19 Because we have a little bit of God in us, nevshalokis, and a little bit of world in us. So every time we do a mitzvah, we're bridging the gap between God and this world. That's the purpose of Judaism. Mitzvos Ananthe Foundation Mitzvos are what we do to unite Shammai Yemenaritz. So that Sadeq is going to find himself on the bridge. Let's say the point is to get from Brooklyn to Stan Island, right? From Kodesh Tachol. Let's say that's the way the muscle goes. It's not true. But let's say it. So that Sadeq would be more on the Brooklyn side. Directing traffic. I thought we each are, are we each on the individual bridge? Are we each on the individual bridge? Shabbat Al A'alaykot. Again, think about it like a bridge. If all of us were locking arms. You ever see that at Smachot, where people link arms and they throw the Bar Mitzvah boy up in the air like that right.

1:05:50 So think about that. We're all links in a chain and that giant chain makes up the bridge. Now those chains in the beginning are going to be more godly in the sense that godliness is more transparent within them. And then they're channeling that godliness across the bridge so that we can all get what we need. Those are the initial links. Now you and I, probably not you but definitely I, were towards the end of the bridge because I'm very shaku, I'm very immersed in the physicality of this world. And because we're immersed in the physicality of this world, when I do a mitzvah, it has a particularly spiritual manifestation in this world that changes the nature of this world. That's why we ought to be excited to do mitzvos. How's the time to the day of the bridge? My connection to the Tzadik is what gives me that life force that's what emboldens my Neschama to actually go into the world of you.

1:06:40 Should be your connection to God? Of course it's your connection to God, of course. But even though my connection to God is essential and I have a peace of God within me, I also need the Tzadik to teach me how to access that. Yeah, but she's like trying to be the best version of yourself. You shouldn't compare yourself to the man. Of course, and nobody's telling you. She's trying to be the Tzadik, it's not you. Roshan The general doesn't win the war, the army does. So why did the army can't win the war with the general? L'Bavachir Rebbe but he was a vision of Tzur Chesed. He was a vision of Tzur Chesed. So when he went... Jewish? Yeah, he was Jewish. So a vision of Tzur Chesed. It's a different sect of Chazivus. Visionate is a different sect of... ...Mubica? Yes. So... I didn't know he was a Tzur Chica. He comes from a vision of Tzur family. So when he first met the L'Bavachir Rebbe, he writes that he told the L'Bavachir Rebbe,

1:08:10 I'm a vision of Tzur. I'm not interested in becoming a L'Bavachir. So the Rebbe answered him. The important thing is to be a Tzur Chesed. It matters less who's... Tchad Tzing. The tikr is not where you are, like which sect of chassidus. The tikr is to be a chassidus. Okay, Ezra. Where does the Russia fall? He's the Eikav. The Russia, like all of us, right? Because remember, in Tanya we're all the Russia, right? So like all of us, he struggles with his humanity, he falls all the time, and hopefully, through his connection to Zirbeim and the inspiration that he finds in learning and all those things, Every time he gets back up, Ezra, even if it's only like this little like get up, I only made one shachras this week And maybe I didn't even make a shachras, we only made a minch this week. Every little fight that he manages to win is beyond, beyond his arms.

1:08:59 Everybody's considered or most of them consider Russia. If I can make an act of transgression, I'm Russia. Yeah. But like, what if I do a mitzvah? Am I considered a tzadah? You're a better Russian. If you do teshuva in that moment... No, sometimes I do a mitzvah. You're still a Russia because remember the whole point to go back to the first year is Russia just means imbalanced. Remember like we said if you get sick you didn't get sick for a random reason because there was an imbalance in the system. Any time you do an Avera it's indicative of an imbalance in the system. So, the Sadiq, the Sadiq was obviously, the Sadiq is born in Sadiq. What if the rest of the Sadiq is born in Sadiq? One second, one second. The questions that you all ask are important. You'll learn as much from the questions as you will from the answers.

1:09:50 So if the Sadiq is, he has to be in Sadiq, he's born in Sadiq, that's his role in life. He still has to become in Sadiq. So what I was going to ask was, does a person really have a say in him behaving in Sadiq? Do not have a say in the design of your soul. What you have a say is, will you actually fulfill the design of your soul? But if we just said that it's hadek, Hasno Yitzahara, then it's hadek. Now that he's a tzadek, now that he's a tzadek, he's born a tzadek. He's born with the capacity to get to that level where he will eradicate his Yitzahara as opposed to the benoni, right? Which is what we're striving for, which is we know that we're not going to get rid of our Yitzahara, but we strive to always act appropriately. Every person is a Tzadek until they are. Has the potential to be a Tzadek until they are. The point is, either we're saying that your Shammah is specifically like, this Shammah has two parts.

1:10:40 The bad, the bad, the bad, the simplified. The good part and the it's part. The Tzadek is only born with the good parts. We're not saying that. No, that's not what we're saying. We're saying the Tzadek may also have his struggles. By the way, you may see that he becomes a Tzadek at a very young age. But it's possible that it'll only become a Tzadek at 40. My friend is a Muslim star of the first and he would have got it, Nitzotzos The great leaders that have what? The example of Harf, who is a world leader, they don't have free will. Who says? He does. Alright, Jack. Does it say that they always don't have free will? The same thing that the Russian thinks of with instance. Okay, it would say that specific instances for divine providence. That's not what's good. That's not the norm.

1:11:46 If free will can be taken away, it doesn't mean that it's not. It seems like this is not ideal. If it's a word, it's not a word. But not a word, it's a Hara that means they don't have any more free will. That's right, and that's exactly what of Dessler rights or of Dessler rights that the goal of a person is to lose their free will because remember all Free will that I have is only because the truth is not apparent to me the more truth you have in your life The less free will you have we're not proud of our free will the fact that I could do terrible things I should be proud of no way That's what it's not. Do we want more free will? I want less free will I have tons of free will so every single person is born with free will We don't want no free will. Even if we can't get closer touch them I want no free will because when I'll have a journey through all of my free will right your free will is changing because You'll prove that it changes. Benzi what'd you play with when you were six years old for hours?

1:12:37 What'd you play with because you were kidding cars like little matchbox cars, right? And what would you like smash them against each other and like? All right, and you should probably I don't know you so well But I imagine you were doing it like many kids probably for sometimes two three hours at a time, right? Do you think you have the capacity to do that now? Tanya Rebbe nachman Rebbe nachman Rebbe Mevaseret Chazal Gemara You can find Fun with Hainan for that, check out my Lights and Sirens, the guy flying down Central Avenue at 90 mph and you don't even know there's a car there, it's all Lights and Sirens, right? Why are they into that? It's sick honestly. First of all, I don't like to make fun of Hainan so much people, because one day I'm for sure going to be the guy who saves my life.

1:13:53 Ha'tzallah is beautiful, it's wonderful, it's amazing of course. But having said that, I once visited the Ha'tzallah headquarters in the five towns in Farakway. Where Ha'tzallah? You know what Ha'tzallah is? The ambulance? Yeah. It's called Ha'tzallah? Yeah. Well, it's no, but it's a Jewish volunteer ambulance. But it's huge. They have tons of ambulances, like it's very people walking around with walkie-talkies and they're tricked out their cars. It's a whole thing. They make big flecks. So, it's a huge flex, it's a huge flex. You want to show you turn off the volume. Yeah I need everybody to know that I'm going on call. And then the other guys who like joined the... What was that thing they think they help you change your cars, yeah, Haverim. And also they got walkies I'm like nah nah nah nah nah, you don't get to change your car on Shabbos, you're not changing your tires on Shabbos, you turn that thing off.

1:14:44 Okay, fine. So I once went up, I once went up to the Hazzallah garage. They have this huge like, you know, massive garage with the Hazzallah ambulances and on the top is like where they're, where dispatch is. So they all have like rotation, like taking the dispatch, right? It's the cutest thing in the world. They have like donuts and cakes and like Chinese food and it's like, if posters on the wall, like they're all hanging out and I'm like, this is a boys club. This is where all you little kids grew up and decided now we hang out here. Some people hanging out in the base of Medrash, they have their hangout and it's great because they're doing massive chesed. But I was like, I get it. If you want to not be home at night and not get in trouble because, what do you mean, I'm saving lives?

1:15:30 Hazzallah is the best place in the world to go. There's tons of free food. I'm telling you, they wore some video games but there could have been. Tanya Rebbe Nachman Rebbe Nachman Now at some point in your life, you can't play with those matchbox cars anymore and maybe even driving a fancy car, you'll be like, what's the point of driving a fancy car that's not going to bring them more happiness, that's just image driven. I don't want to be an image driven person. So your free will starts to shift again and then you're like, wait a second I want to make money in my life because I need to support my family but the difference between making 300,000 dollars a year and 600,000 dollars a year might be a massive difference in how much time I get to spend with my family. So all of a sudden you might downshift again, and you might say well wait a second. Do I really need that fancy car?

1:16:41 I'm much better than ever relationship No, that's the result meaning I could not do a job that would pay me 750,000 dollars a year making the choice that's the point at some point because one choices less appealing doesn't mean it's not a choice That's true If that's the level you're at but at some point it becomes so obvious to you that that's the only choice for you that You literally couldn't lead a different lifestyle At the point of struggle, that's what you're thinking because you're in the struggle. Even if I knew, if I knew, if I knew, like, if I knew that I'd find a ship right here in the room... Then you couldn't have choice. Because the truth would be so obvious, it wouldn't allow for it. At the same time I could say, ah I know the truth, but... in principle I get to sins.

1:17:29 No you can't, that's my point. You can sin 40 days later when that feeling has dissipated. But as long as you are literally in the room with God, you don't have free choice. It doesn't exist. Could you stand me right now? I could. You could? I mean, I could. I have a panic. Do it. Really, I want you to put it through my arm. It's a little mean. No, do it. It's okay. I'm like, hard. Do it. Come on, man. Do it. You have free choice. You don't have free choice. Yes, OK. By the way, the guys right now are like, I could do it. Think about what you're saying about yourself. That's fine. We know he has issues. Everyone knows he has issues. That much we're not hiding. Yeah. We can't do it without you. What was that? Maybe we might have put it down because it was really bad.

1:18:19 Yeah, because what happens? All of a sudden the truth becomes clouded in your anger. That bias blocks the truth. And yes, a person might be able to do a horrific thing when they're angry. I agree. Well, you shouldn't be proud of that, right? You should walk around going I got free choice if I get really angry. I think I could murder someone. Yeah, like alright So you're a potential murderer. I'd like to think that at this point in my life Well, I still do many others the truth of murder is so true to me that even if I get angry I don't think I can murder you. Yeah last question for the day Sure, but in a different type of way because what they're doing more with their mitzvos is more geared not towards bringing Hashem into Deiru, but tachtonim because let's say for example they're not doing Averas, they can't do Teshuva. So in a certain way they're not as involved in tachtonim as we are. Right, exactly correct. Exactly correct. Okay, so we'll stop here for today.