Purim - Turning Wisdom Into Torah, The Head To The Heart

2:17 Thank you. You want to say something? You want to take her? Hi everyone. Welcome. I'm Aviva Fass. I work for the Feslik mission. I just wanted to welcome everyone here. We had this crazy idea last night at the end of Shabbos that Rabbi Berg was stuck here, and let's do something. I had no expectations of what was going to happen. Very quickly put something together, and it's incredible that this room is literally packed to the brim. So thank you all for being here. It's so incredible. The Chizuk Mission is an organization that started to get women ignited and connected to their neshama, to other women, to Hashem. We're doing that constantly with programs across the country, Eretz Israel. We have a trip to Eretz Israel on May 13th.

3:27 Emet Hashem, who knows what will be, but we just concluded one this past week and it's been an adventure. But we're so excited to be here, and we're all so excited that you're here. Rabbi Berg has been an instrumental component of the Chizuk Mission. He speaks for us on a weekly basis on Zoom. We do a shir with him every week as a chabura. He speaks for our groups when we're in Eretz Israel. When he's here, we always try to do something with him somewhere, wherever it is across the country. And we took this opportunity to have him be here. I think a lot of you know him from seminary, from the Vassaret, and maybe from the Chizuk Mission. We're really excited, and I just wanted to say that the shir is also dedicated by Avivit. Yisrael Mayor Mickley, in honor of Naomi's Hebrew birthday, which is tonight. Happy birthday!

4:14 As her parents continue to be awesome. Your mom says, "Please don't kill me for doing this." With that, I welcome Rabbi Berg. Please don't take this the wrong way. I mean this sincerely. I've never wanted to be here less in my entire life. I'm not joking. I didn't mean that as a joke. Sincerely, this is a very, very difficult time to be here. It's never easy to leave my family. I don't know why I'm here. That's the emas. I know I'm here for a reason, but I don't know why. I'm on no sleep, and when I say no sleep, I mean a level of sleep I maybe have 10 or 11 hours over the last three days. I have no idea what's going to come out of my mouth. When I was driving from Muncie to here, I was literally on the phone with friends who learned in Mevasseret with me the last couple years, just to keep me awake while I was driving.

5:32 Bishani. Thank you so much. Shani had to come to Cascar. I've never in my life parked. No Jew has ever parked in the parking lot of Cascar. That's a place we drive by. I parked in that parking lot. I took my passport because I have no idea if anything is going to be there when I get back. I came with no clothing. I had the intention to be here for two days. I flew in Friday morning. I was supposed to be. I guess not. I thought I was supposed to be on the flight out at one thirty this afternoon out of Newark. And Rebbeinu Shlom had other plans. I guess I'm here for a reason. I don't know if I can't sleep because I'm jet lagged or because I'm so anxious for my family. I'm not anxious that anything's going to happen to them. Eretz Yisrael is the place that Hakadosh Baruch Hu is always watching.

6:32 I know that Hakadosh Baruch Hu is watching us now more than ever. I'm anxious because I so badly want to be with them. I'm on the phone with my wife as often as I can be. All the grandchildren moved into the house. All the children moved into the house. I'm on the phone with my wife, and she says, "Oh, we just got another warning, so I gotta go." They're not sending Katusha rockets; they're sending cruise missiles. That the size of eighteen-wheeler trucks. The missile that Lo Alenu killed nine people today in Beit Shemesh—that's half a mile from where my parents live in Beit Shemesh. This is not academic; this is happening, and it's in real life. They have nothing left to lose. At the very, very end, in the final moments of this evil regime They're going to do whatever they can to take as many people down with them.

7:38 But I know who my enemies are, and I don't know if you know who your enemies are. I had to go to Hertz Rent a Car. There's a strange bug. If you ever rent from Hertz Rent a Car, there's a strange bug. You can't extend a rental. I don't know why that's not a feature. I have your car. I don't know why I need to go back to Newark Airport to switch it for a car that has it. Like an extension built in. This woman at the counter saw when I gave her my Israeli license. She says, "You're from Israel." I said, "Yes." She said, "I hate Trump." " I was like What do you? The building and your shirt have the same colors. You're not like you're not the intelligencia of society. I'm not interested in hearing your political opinion. And then she continues and she says, "I hate the fact that we got dragged into this."

8:38 What do you want from me? I'm overweight with a beard, so you think you have the right to say whatever you want in my direction? So I said, "Well." I'm not here to get involved in politics, but the world is a safer place today because evil men have died. And if you'll just give me the keys to my car, I can leave this anti-Semitic hertz in Newark Airport. When they write Megillah Sama'ashiach, there is no doubt in my mind that they are absolutely writing down Berachah Bitechtana. In Shamayim, every single tenua that's happening. The fact that this is all happening in Adar. The fact that Khomeini is destroyed because he sought to have a nuclear weapon that he could use against Klal Yisrael. Mamish Haman ala Eitz that he attempted to have an Eitz to kill Mordechai, and that the Eitz in the end took his own life.

9:44 That it wasn't just Khomeini, but that they targeted all of his children. They targeted all of the upper command of the entire IRGC. We're living in absolutely wild times, and with a real prospect The last people standing was Iran. This was it. On October sixth, if you would have told us when we were in a state of civil war. We were mismatched in a state of civil war with each other. If you had told us on October sixth that Nasrallah would be dead That Sinwar would be dead, that Hamas would basically be destroyed, that Hezbollah would basically be destroyed, that Assad would be overthrown in Syria. If we stopped there Dayenu, we would have said this is the most unbelievable time in our lives. But the last one was Khomeini. The ultimate terror proxy king Who was facilitating with the money that he had to be able to make a dent in the world And now he's gone too.

11:00 And that it happened. The way the Gemara in Yuma describes it, the final war in the times of Mashiach is going to be between Rome and Persia. Which is. The modern day America is Rome. And that this is literally playing out the way that Chazal said it would. Every Jew in the world is paying attention right now. We're all interested. Everyone's being medayik in that famous medrash in the Alkit Shamoni that speaks about exactly what's going to be in that final battle. Everyone's like, "Is this the final battle? Is it not the final battle?" I don't know. I'm not here to predict things. It was not the way of my rebbeim to predict things like this. To be perfectly honest, Aviva, when Aviva messaged me, Aviva comes up with great titles for shirim. Everyone has their talent in the world. You come up with the best titles. I don't know if it's ChatGPT. See, but you come up with the best titles.

12:04 Was war es, ChatGPT? She said to me I need a title. I said, "Give me a second, I'm thinking." And I thought, "It's not a war; it's Mashiach." You're 100% right. It's always been Mashiach. I'm not here. I just said yes because I was too tired to even think about what I was saying. With you Like a good husband. It's a good title. I just don't know if it's gonna have anything to do with the shir that I'm giving. I hope it is. We'll see. We'll find out. I heard many years ago from Rabbi Kurland and Shaiyashu. Rabbi Kurland said something to the effect of Tell me what the title is afterwards. I'm going to prepare the shir. I'll figure out how to fit it in afterwards. We'll see if it fits in. I'm not here to predict anything or say what's what. I'm not a person who has shoulders to do that.

12:51 And even if I was, the Gemara says that it's usur to predict when Mashiach is going to come, and we don't want to make people dismayed if it doesn't work out exactly the way that we think it's going to work out. But I do want to say something that I heard from Rav Fraym Waxman Shlitto over 20 years ago when I was still living in the Five Towns. When I went to hear Waxman speak He said "Hakire es a Megillah mafreil lo yotze." The Gemara says that somebody who reads the Megillah backwards is not yotze. So what does that mean? First of all, who reads a book backwards? I know somebody that reads a book backwards. Harry Potter was very anticlimactic for him. But most of us read a book forwards. Who would have a havamina to read the book backwards? So I remember if Waxman was screaming In his in the way that he does, beautiful, beautiful screaming

13:52 And he said, a yid has to read the Megillah of life, and at every single stage, a yid has to say, this is what happened. It's a Yeshua for yidden, and the next thing that happens, it's a Yeshua for yidden. I have no idea what's happening in the world today, but I know. Best Hashem, this is going to go as smoothly as it possibly can, and these will be the final moments of Chavle Mashiach, and best Hashem will greet Mashiach zakenu mamish fast. But I don't know why anything's happened, but it's clear this is a Yeshua for Yidden. Israel is the only country in the world where they have rescue missions to bring their citizens back to a state of war. I really feel that way. I really feel like. I need to be rescued, to be brought back home, so that I could be there when Mashiach comes. I want to be in Mevaseret Al HaGavoa Alilach Mevaseret Zion Harimi Bekach Kolich Mevaseret Yerushalayim. I want to be there when Mashiach Zakeinu comes to Mevaseret and blows that shofar that the entire world comes home.

14:56 I miss my talmidim, my friends, the rebbeim in yeshiva, and everybody so much. I just want to be there because I know it's coming. I'm sorry for being emotional. I feel like I'm in the wrong place in the world. My wife has a policy. I bet some Baron can attest to this. My wife has a policy. She basically doesn't leave Eretz Yisrael. I beg her to come with me. It'd be a nice vacation. There are Talmidim here that would give us their homes. She doesn't leave. She doesn't leave Eretz Yisrael. She has no interest in leaving Eretz Yisrael. I think maybe I finally understand why she doesn't leave. I am, however, curious. When I do get on that rescue mission What security is going to be like? Are they going to ask me those questions? Are you bringing anything for any? Just let me come home, man. Just like What's next week's parsha, dude?

15:53 We gotta go, man. I want to be on that. I want to be on that plane so badly. I know it's going to be one of those moments that you never forget for the rest of your life. And I hope you'll join me. Not by direct Zurich to Cairo driving straight. I'll come find the sharem. I hope that every one of us is able to go as soon as possible. Property value in the five towns is really going to plummet in a minute. Just prepare yourself. We just read Parsha Zocher. Remember what Amalek did to you on the way. Asher karkha baderach They attacked us along the way. They created a sense of kriros, a sense of coldness along the way. What's the significance of the fact that Amalek attacks us baderach? I want to share with you an amazing chiddush ha'arim that I saw brought down by the Shvile Penchas.

17:12 Chachma b'goyim tamen, Torah b'goyim al tamen. Is a bechiner of chachma that the goyim have Torah they don't have. Says the chiddush ha'arim Chachma is in the mind. Chachma is something that everybody has. Everybody in the entire world has chachma. Everyone has a head. Torah is not located in the head, says the Chiddusherim. Torah is located in the heart. Torah b'goyim al tamen. They don't have a yidushah hearts. They don't have what we have. The Rebbeinu Shlom gave us something very special. What does b'derech mean? Says the Chiddusherim. The largest distance in the world is the distance between our head and our heart. Especially in these moments before Mashiach is coming, everyone has to pay attention to what the kids are saying. If we want to know what we're feeling, pay attention to what children are saying. Children tell us what's really going on in the world.

18:20 Every kid They're not satisfied with the Yiddishkeit that we grew up with. They're not satisfied with knowing things. Rabbi, I want to feel something. I don't want to know it intellectually. I want to know it emotionally. I want to take that which is chokhmah. I want it to travel down my person through my neck. The neck is badeirech. The neck is the path that takes us from our head to our heart. The kids are rebelling, and they're right. They're right to rebel. I'm not interested in an intellectual Torah. It has to be relevant. They don't mean relevant in the way that we think they mean it. I used to get very upset. What do you mean? It wanted to be relevant. What's not relevant about this? They don't mean relevance like Halachically relevant. That's the mistake that Rebbeim make when a boy is learning a Gemara and they're learning Sharshanaga Chesapara, and they're like, Rebbe, I don't own an ox. I don't own many oxen. My friends don't own oxen. Nobody's goring each other.

19:18 So some Rebbe comes along and he says, if you had a car, he says, if I had a car, I'd call insurance. The kids are not asking for relevancy in halacha. They're asking for something much more profound. Teach me Torah in a way that I can integrate this Torah into my person. That it will illuminate my life. That I'll be passionate about it. That I'll be excited about it. I don't know how to take it from chachma and make it into Torah. I don't know how to travel from the mind down into the heart. That's what our kids are saying today, and they're 100% right to say it. Asher karka baderach The nature of a mole. Which Amalek learned from Zediyah Esav The nature of Amalek is to attack us in the neck. To wipe out our neck, so that we have no ability to traverse the distance between our head and our heart.

20:08 Esav was ish yidaya tsayet befiv. He was a Yidaya. That's what Esav was. He knew things. Everything about Esav was fake. He would come to Yitzchak and he would say how do I take mice how do I take maaser from salt Everything was intellectual but emotionally it wasn't there. It didn't live in the world of his lived reality that he was excited to serve Hakadosh Baruch Hu. We all know the famous Targum Yonasan ben Uziel says that at the very end when Yaakov Avinu was being buried and Esav Arashah stood in the way and he wouldn't let them bury Yaakov because he said that's my spot in Maras Machpelah. We all know the story. Chushim Ben Don Famous sichas mussar from Rav Chaim Shmuel Eitz. Chushim Ben Don, who was deaf, couldn't understand what was going on, so he just chopped off Esav's head. There's a lot of mussar shmooz around why it was Dafka Chushim Ben Don.

21:03 But why was it Esav's head that rolls into Ma'aras Machpelah? Esav's head Taka learned a lot of Torah. Esav was, in a certain sense, in his way, a yeshiva guy. He grew up in yeshiva Yitzchak. He grew up in yeshiva Avraham Mavinu. There's no doubt that Esav was well trained in chokhmah. Torah he didn't have. His body can't come into the ma'ara. His body was never purified by that baderech. It never traveled from his head into his heart. This is what Amalek knows. Amalek knows that the legacy of Esav is to create distance between our head and our heart. That we could know something, but it has no impact on my life. This is everything that Hamalik stands for. This answers the famous question: Why is Haman, of all the ways that Haman could have killed Mordechai, why does he want to hang him on a tree?

21:55 How do we hang people from their neck? This is what Haman seeks to do to Mordechai. Haman says, "I have to break the neck of Klal Yisrael." And why does Dafka have to break the neck of Mordechai the Tzaddik? Because the nature of a Tzaddik, this is what a Tzaddik is: a Tzaddik is somebody in whose presence. It's not just tachma; it's tyra. When we meet a true tzaddik, we're meeting somebody from a different universe. I was eager to have a yichidus with Ravit Shemayer a couple of months ago. When we first found out that my wife was expecting, I wanted to go to the tzaddik for a bracha. I have a talmud who's an amazing person. And somehow he became deeply connected to Ravitchemayer, and he was able to get me in. And I walked into the study, and I felt like I traveled back in time a thousand years.

22:55 A thousand years. I walked into a study in Yerushalayim. With a big fancy chair. There's nothing about the entire place that's fancy. Ravitchemayer is not interested in anything. I don't know this for sure, but I'm pretty sure the thank you Hashem guys are the ones that bought Rivit Shemayr that chair. Are we doing this because you bought the chair? You got that chair for Rivit Shemayr? Thank you Hashem. The thank you Hashem people bought the chair. I think I heard something like that. It's a nice chair. Taka, nice chair. I traveled back in time. Have you ever walked through Meir Sharem? Maybe. Maybe it's not always a good idea. But ever walk through Mea Shearim, and you feel like you're traveling back in time. Like every block that you walk through is like another 500 years that you traveled back in time. I met a man who was not of this world. I met a man who did not belong in this generation.

23:52 I felt like when I was talking to him, he had to come down to have a conversation with me. It was the strangest thing I've ever experienced in my entire life. I went afterwards to teach in different places in Yerushalayim. I don't know what I said that night, but I was flying from it. I was alive in the presence of a tzaddik. I can't describe it to you unless you've ever had anything like this in your life. You have no idea what I'm talking about. I don't blame you if you're looking at me and thinking that I'm crazy. It was exceptionally special. The job of a tzaddik is to make the entire world come alive in their yiddishkeit. Haman and Mordechai are foils for each other because they believe in the exact opposite thing. Mordechai believes in a world where people are excited by ideas, they're passionate about ideas, they're so passionate that it becomes their reality. They're not interested in just knowing things. They're not interested in a Torah that they're opening up the sefer and then closing the sefer and then they have another check mark.

24:52 Tzaddikim are not interested in check mark Yiddishkeit. They're interested in people doing things so that they could serve Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Haman Rasha can't stand such a life. To know things intellectually, to be an academic, to be a professor of Rashi and a professor of Tzitzis doesn't bother Amalek on any level. But that you should be excited by ideas this terrifies Amalek. But there is a question. There is a question that we have to ask ourselves. That I think Amalek. Is hopping onto something, and it requires us to have a better answer than I think we've ever had before to counteract the forces of Amalek that are in the world today. The Balatanya brings, and really, it's in Zayar before that. The balatanya brings that hamoyach sholad alalev That the mind has an impact on the heart. But there's a kasha. Why? Why does the mind have an impact on the heart? The domain of the intellect is the domain of the intellect. The domain of the emotion is the domain of the emotion.

26:05 How could it possibly be that because I know something, I could get excited by it? The Balatanya, the Emes says the Balatanya later in Tanya speaks about it from the opposite direction, that a person could awaken the emotions that they naturally have, the organic love that every single yid has for the Rebbeinu Sholom, and that could even impact his intellect. But why? Why are these two separate domains? Why is it that intellect and emotion have a relationship with each other? The Alkach Shemoni in Esther tells the following story And this is not the only. There are many Mamari Chazal on this. I'm choosing the Alkach Shemoni because it's a beautiful Alkach. We know that Haman wanted to be Toyle Mordechai Yitzadik on an Eitz that was fifty amos high. Where did he get this beam from? Where did he get this wood from? So Haman searched all over for such a beam until he realized there was only one such beam that would be appropriate.

27:11 There was a beam in his house, a beam in his house that was fifty amos long. Where did he get this fifty amos beam from? And by the way, think about the sin that Haman had for Mordechai Hatzadik. That he was willing to destroy his own home, which obviously can be understood in a very deep way. That there are some people who have such hatred for things that they're willing to destroy everything in their life to take that thing down. And Haman takes apart his own home so that he can take this fifty amos beam and plant it, and he'll ultimately hang Mordechai. That's his plan. Where did he get this fifty amos beam from? So we know that Haman had a son whose name was Parshandasa. And Parshandasa. When they were building Haman's house He traveled to Noah's Teva. The Alkud says that Noah's Teva stuck around for a long time, a zecher, so that the world shouldn't be able to deny that there was a flood.

28:09 And in Noah's Teva There was a beam that was fifty amos long. And Parshandasa Dafka understood that the house that we're going to grow up in, the house of Haman Arasha, the home of our Malak, has to have this beam in it. This has to be the central beam of Haman's house. What's the pshat? The Gemara in Rosh Hashanah twenty-one B tells us that there were nun shari bina that were created in the world And all of them except for one were given to Moshe Rabbeinu. Forty-nine levels of bina Moshe Rabbeinu had, but the fiftieth level Moshe Rabbeinu didn't have access to the fiftieth level. What is this fiftieth level? So the maral explains: Human consciousness has a structure to it. There's a mesudar order of intellects, one level after another. The highest level of intellect is the forty-ninth level. But the fiftieth gate The nun shere bina Represents an entirely different structure.

29:22 At the highest level of chokhmah, at the highest level of bina There are no more categories. There's no more good and evil. There's no more Jew and guy. There's no more tzaddik and Russia. At the highest level of Hakadosh Baruch Hu's atzmos, the highest level of Hashem's essence, it's beyond all created categories. It's chomer without tsura. It's matter without form. It's not a world that we can understand. Everything in our world is structured and organized. There's a chair, there's a table, there's a stender, there's a bima. Everything in this world has its own category, but in truth At the highest possible level, from the perspective of Atzmus, there are no created categories. This is the fiftieth level. It's not a level that we can possibly understand. Even Meisher Abenu only reached the forty ninth level in his lifetime. We'll see that he did reach the fiftieth level later.

30:20 What was the problem in the Dara Mabul? The Dara Mabul was a brilliant generation. The Dara Mabul could have been zayicha to Kabbalas Atira. The Gemara tells us that at the time of the giving of the Torah, the astrologers ran to Bilam Arasha because they were very nervous. They looked into the sky and saw that it was the same exact zodiac as it was in the times of the Mabul, and they said Hakadosh Baruch Hu is going to destroy the world again. And Bila Marasha said, No, He's not going to destroy the world because last time Klal Yisrael wasn't there to receive the Torah. Now that Klal Yisrael is here, the Mayim is going to come down as Torah. It's not going to come down in its physical form and destroy the world. Which means to say that in that generation of the Dara Mabul, fundamentally, essentially speaking, they were capable of receiving the Torah.

31:11 But because they weren't roy lekach They had unbelievable chokhma, but they had no heart. So they weren't shy about it. But Na'ach was a big tzaddik. Na'ach was a big tzaddik. He understood this bechina of the fiftieth level. That's why he was ishtami. He was complete. Na'ach reached this madrega of the fiftieth level Which means to say that even though the entire world was living in a state of fragmentation. A gap between chokhmah and taira, but a gap between the intellect and the heart. Noach was each time. The Noach matzachein be'enei Hashem. The pasuk in Bereishis tells us that Noach found favor in the eyes of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Chain is Rashi Tevus chush nun. He had a sense of that fiftieth level in his life. He lived from the perspective of atzmus. As high as one could possibly go to Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Hakadosh Baruch Hu destroyed a fragmented world.

32:14 Na'ach wasn't living in the fragmentation of this world. The way that Na'ach survived is that he entered into this teva with this beam that went across it of fifty amos. It means to say that Na'ach reached such a madrega that he was beyond the world that was destroyed. So Na'ach wasn't destroyed because the fragmentation of the world was destroyed, but Na'ach wasn't fragmented. He was a tam. He was absolutely complete. We have to understand that everything in this world that's ever been broken has been broken because we don't have the sense of oneness, because we don't live on the fiftieth level. This was the level that Adam and Chava lived in before they sinned. The Nachash Kadmoni came to create Pirud in the world. Eitz Hadas, Toiv Vira. There are multiple categories in this world. And that's why the Balik Habala explain that the Nachash also represents Choshnun.

33:07 That's what the letters of Nachash stand for: Chush Nun, a sense of the fiftieth. The Nachash understood that his job in this world is to corrupt that fiftieth level of Binah and to bring the world to a Madriga of the fiftieth level of Tumah. That's what the Nachash did successfully. Noach wasn't holding by the sin of Adam Arishon. Mamele he wasn't destroyed with the rest of the world. Moshe Rabbeinu was the Gilgal of Noach. So Moshe Rabbeinu says, 'Meheni na misifrecha.' Meheni is the same letters as May Noach. Just like Noach went into a teva, Moshe Rabbeinu went into a teva. Just like Noach was in the teva forty days and forty nights, Moshe Rabbeinu had kabbalat Torah forty days and forty nights. The parallels between the life of Moshe Rabbeinu and the life of Noach are unbelievable. Now Rizal brings that they're gilgulim of each other.

33:58 So if you look at the pasuk where Moshe Rabbeinu asks Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Please allow me entrance into the fiftieth level. Listen to what the words of the pasuk say; they'll sound very familiar. Va'ata im na matzasi chayin be'enecha. What is my Shabbenu asking Hakadosh Baruch Hu when he says, "I want to be on that fiftieth level"? He's saying, "Please, I'm looking for that chayin. I'm looking for that chush nun." Haydieni na. Listen to the words. Estherachecha. Show me your ways. What is my Shabbenu asking? He's saying, 'I know the secret.' The secret of the fiftieth level is that derech. It's the baderech. It's the journey from your head to your heart. The reason why it's possible to unite the head and the heart, even though in truth they live in two different universes It's only true to the level of the forty-ninth level of bina. But on the fiftieth level of bina, which is beyond all created categories, there is no category called head, and there is no category called heart. Everything is the rabbanis shalom. It's all the rabbanis shalom.

35:01 So Moshe Rabbeinu was saying, 'Please, Rebbeinu Shlom, give me that chayin, give me that chush nun, so that I can know the derech, so that I can be that tzaddik that brings Torah down into the world in such a way that the Torah is absolutely intellectual and absolutely emotional, and it's not a stira.' I don't want to say anything negative about Klal Yisrael. But I said it publicly once, and I want to say it publicly again. There is no room in the world for us to be. And I'm going to be specific here. I don't want to say negative things about Chas v'Shalim. It's not the time at all to say negative things. Chas v'Shalim is amazing. Chas v'Shalim is beautiful. But to defend Chas v'Shalim, I want to say we do not need, nor should we be, on any level, knocking people down in the way that they're trying to serve.

35:53 And I have no idea what happens in Shamayim. I have no idea But I do know that a yid who's doing his best to try to find some Pesach to feel something for the Rebbeinu Shlom is doing a good thing. And if that means that he's going to karistir, and if that means that he's listening to music, and if that means that he's going to mikvah Nobody ever said that means that he doesn't have to open up a black gemara, and nobody ever said that means that he doesn't have to follow shochan aruch. And as far as I know, and I've been listening to Rav Moshe Weinberger for a very long time, Rav Weinberger never said such a thing. And even though I haven't been listening to Rav Zakatinsky for as long, I'm confident that Rav Zakatinsky hasn't said that either. We do not need to be making songs about Yom Haddin. There are Yidden that are just trying to walk a path.

36:45 They're just trying to get from their head to their heart. And if that derech takes them through Kerestir, why does it bother you so much? Believe me, there are a lot worse places to go. Probably places that will You have to answer on Yom Hadin. Shvile Princhos brings down Hoidieni Na. Why does the pasuk say Na? None is Nun Ayris. There's fifty Ayris. My Shabina was asking, can I please see the Ayris of that fiftieth level? I want to reach that level of Atzmus. I want to reach that level where there is no difference between head and heart, and everything is united in the surface of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. The Arizal says that even though Moshe Rabbeinu in his lifetime didn't reach the fiftieth level, at the end of his life, Moshe Rabbeinu did reach the fiftieth level. That's why it says Vayal Moshe me Arvas Moav al Har Nevo that Moshe went up at the end of his life from the plains of Moav to Har Nevo. Moav is begematria forty nine. Nevo is Nun Bow.

37:46 That Moshe Rabbeinu went from the forty ninth level to the fiftieth level. At the end of Moshe Rabbeinu's life, he reached the Madriga where he was living from the perspective of the Atzmos of Hakadosh Baruch Hu. But this is what Amalek seeks to destroy. Amalek wants to go down to the 50th level of tuma. It's a machlokes in Kabbalah if there is a 50th level of tuma. The Leshem explains that really there is a 50th level of tuma, and just the moment that you get there, you realize that there is no 50th level of tuma. That it propels you to the highest possible madrigas. But let's for a moment say that there is a 50th level of tuma. This is what the Nachash Kadmoni. This is what Amalek. This is what Esav. This is what they're trying to bring the world down to this fiftieth level of tuma. Which is why Haman arranges this entire house that he takes that fiftieth level of kedusha zel umaze. He takes that fiftieth level of kedusha that Noach Chazalik reached.

38:39 And he brings it into his own home because he seeks to corrupt such a level that there should be no madrega of a tzaddik, that a yid shouldn't have any inspiration, that a yid should live an academic Jewish life. That there should be all the checklists. And all the tsnius police and all the things that we do to keep yidden following the right thing, even though pasht passionless. But in the end Haman himself is hung exactly on that beam. Why? Because essence ultimately reveals all distortion. The moment that a person gets to that fiftieth level of tumah. There is no fiftieth level of tumah. When a person reaches that madrega of the fiftieth level, everything falls away. Haman creates his own undoing. Just like Chomeneh did to himself. His obsession with this nuclear program that he wanted to use to destroy Klal Yisrael, and nobody had any pretenses for one minute that it was for nuclear power to sustain what was happening in Iran. It was achvirak to destroy Klal Yisrael, and it became the weapon of his own undoing.

39:50 Because ultimately That force of destruction dies. There was another person throughout history that also reached the 50th level, and that's Rav Kiva. That's why, by Rav Kiva, all the things that we would never do, Rav Kiva did. None of us would laugh at a funeral. That famous Gemara at the end of Makos, where Rav Kiva sees a fox coming out of the Beit Hamikdash, out of the Kodesh Hakodashim, and he starts laughing. Why are you laughing? Why are you crying? What do you mean, Rav Kiva? Why are you crying? They're crying because it's the destruction of the Kodesh Hakadosh. Rav Akiva, he's not living in the world of categories. Rav Akiva reached the fiftieth level. That's why there is a medrash that says that Moshe Rabbeinu said to Hakadosh Baruch Hu, "Take Klal Yisrael out of Mitzrayim through Rav Akiva?" Why? Because two hundred and ten years of slavery. And if we were, if we would stay for one moment longer We would have been on the fiftieth level of tuma. And Moshe Rabbeinu said, 'I, in my lifetime, who have only reached the forty-ninth level of kedusha, will not be able to take them out of the fiftieth level of tuma.' As a result, Klal Yisrael's gullus is going to be extended for the rest of history because those one hundred and ninety years that we didn't have when we were in Mitzrayim become amortized out throughout the rest of history.

41:05 Because Moshe Rabbeinu said, 'I can't take them from the fiftieth level, so we need to take them out now.' But why don't you take them out with Rivkahiva? Because Rivkahiva, who reached the fiftieth level of Bina, Rivkahiva, who was able to darshan every single crown in the Torah, because he had reached that level, the fiftieth level, the Kesser Kol Xarim, the highest levels in the Torah, he said, 'Take Klal Yisrael out of Eretz Yisrael with Rivkahiva. Let them finish the next hundred and ninety years, and then Rivkahiva will take them out from the bottom.' And Hakadosh Baruch Hu says, 'This is not my plan. My plan is that it's going to be different. But fundamentally, Rivkah is capable of reaching the fiftieth level of tuma because she was capable of reaching the fiftieth level of kedusha.' This is why the Gemara in Sanhedrin tells us that the descendants of Haman learned Torah, dafka in Bnei Brak. Why in Bnei Brak?

41:53 Who was the Rav of Bnei Brak? We all know from the Pesach Seder who was the Rav of Bnei Brak. It was none other than Rav Akiva. The Rav Akiva was the one that went into Bnei Brak and reached that fiftieth level of tuma. Ultimately, Haman's descendants. Haman's descendants, the ones that reached the very, very bottom, the ones who sought to destroy Klal Yisrael by bringing them to the fiftieth level of tuma, dafka. Those people are the ones that reached the fiftieth level of kedusha with Rav Kiva. Dafka. Those are the ones that are in his orbit. Chazal ci dicono, Aya zutayra. The Aya wasn't referring to light; it's referring to tayra. And simcha is referring to yantif And 'son' and 'sasen' is referring to bris mila, and 'yikar' is referring to tefillin. Famous Kasha. So why not tell us that? Why does it have to refer to them as ayre, v'simcha, v'sasen, v'yikar? Just tell us. And at the end there was a restoration of tefillin and bris mila and yantif and tyra.

42:54 Why not just say it? And furthermore, this is not Chanukah. On Chanukah, the Yevonim sought to take away mitzvahs from Kali Yisrael. On Purim, Hakadosh Baruch Hu. Was Geiser that Haman should be allowed to kill us? As far as we know, when we read the Megillah, there were no xeraths against Klali Yisrael making a bris milah. So all the Baalei Chasidus give the same answer. All the Baalei Chasidus say there was a xerah against bris milah, and there was a xerah against Yontif, and there was a xerah against Tyra, and there was a xerah against Tfilin. The xerah wasn't like in the times of Yevanim where they asserted it. The kseira was that in the times of Haman, when a Jew put on tefillin, he was wrapping straps And when a Jew performed the mitzvah of bris mila, it was circumcision. And yontif was about. I have nothing left in the tank, so I'm just going to say whatever's on my heart.

43:48 That yontif wasn't yontif suda. It was just how much money we could spend on yontif, and how much alcohol could be at our Purim suda. It's a chisaron in yontif. It's not an expression of yontif. And the Torah that we learn is the Torah of academic Torah. And who gets celebrated? Not the boys that are stagi, not the boys that are killing themselves in the basic medrash, not the boys that have that passion. But maybe they weren't born with the same level of kishron. Who are the boys that we put up on the pedestal? Those are the real lamdanim. They don't. They can't daven for their lives, but they can learn very, very well. This was the gzera. It was gzera of Haman to separate a yid's head from his heart. When Mordechai HaTzaddik won When he was victorious When Haman Harasha has to march Mordechai through the streets saying 'Kacha ye yasele ish, Kacha Rashi teves keser kol akzarin.'

44:44 When Haman himself has to declare, the Baschemto says that Mordechai HaTzaddik reached that highest level of keser, the fiftieth level, and everything comes tumbling down. There's a restoration, not of Yantif, not a restoration of Tefillin, not a restoration of Bris Mila, not a restoration of Tyra. It was a restoration of ayra, the simcha, the sussan, the yikar. It was a restoration of light and of joy and of gladness and of preciousness. It was a restoration of the essence of everything being returned to Klal Yisrael, not just the performance. But the light. That's why the Baal Kabbalah say that Mordechai is the same oisio as derech yud mem. Yud mem is the gematria of fifty. The Mordechai HaTzaddik is the one who knew the derech. He knew the way. Today we use a phrase called "off the derech" And we use it so wrong. Off the derech has nothing to do with religious performance. The derech is that a yid is moving as best as he can to try to get to that level of kivus ala kimli toif. That I'm just trying to connect myself to my Maker.

45:59 Last night I had the opportunity to be with Rav Daniel Kalish in Parsippany, New Jersey. With NCSY 4G. I've never seen the show up close and personal the way that I saw it last night. Chaim Guri and Shlomo Guri are such unbelievable people. I just got to meet them over Shabbos. Now I know why their songs are hitting so hard in the world. It's not because the songs themselves are beautiful; they are, but it's because the people that sang them are so beautiful. And to see these two young men Singing with their rebbe on stage. With such heart It was so exceptionally beautiful. I was sitting on stage with them. And I was just watching the way that Rivkalish holds himself and the way that Chaim and Shlomo were singing. The derech is so broad. Shivim panim l'tayir. There's a broad derech. There are so many different ways for us to serve Hakadosh Baruch Hu.

47:10 Today we made a monopoly on hashkafa. This is the right way, and this is the wrong way. This is not the derech of Klal Yisrael. The derech of a tzaddik is derech yud mem. It's we're all trying to get close to that level of atzmus. That there's no difference between this yid and that yid. All there are is yidin. I watched last night when Chaim was singing yidin, and he wasn't just singing it. He was screaming it. He was screaming it in the bichina of tzaka. I was just it was flowing out of him. I know where he learned it from. He learned it from his rabbi. I watched this rabbi Kalish Literally lovingly. Sat and answered every single question that was coming at him. And then when it was finally time to answer the questions, the session was over. So I got up to leave.

48:05 And Rebbe Kalish got up to leave, And I hadn't eaten because I was all anxious and I hadn't eaten anything all day. So I'm trying to scrounge around in the kitchen to find something to eat. I was hanging out with a Talmud who had come to visit Beautiful young man by the name of Chika, a real tzaddik of a guy. Came all the way to Parsippany just to drop off hamantashen and black and white cookies for my wife. I think by the time those hamantashen come to Eretz Yisrael I hope they're not chametz. That would be bad. It was two hours later, and Rabbi Kalish was still there answering girls' questions. It was two o'clock in the morning. I finally went upstairs. It was two o'clock in the morning, and Rabbi Kalish was still there answering questions. I have no idea what time he left.

48:51 I don't know how he does it. I do know how he does it. It's because he loves Yidden. He doesn't care what they look like. Because he's on a completely different derech. He's derech Yud Mem. The Navi tells us that just as we left Mitzrayim. Many years ago. So too, the flow. So too, will we one day see Mashiach Tzidkenu come. That the same way that Moshe Rabbeinu took Klal Yisrael out of Mitzrayim and brought us to Har Sinai, and we had 49 days of Sfira S'omer, and then Hakadosh Baruch Hu revealed to us that 50th level by Har Sinai and gave us the Torah. So too That's how it will be in the times of Mashiach. Mashiach is Rashi Teves. Mashiach yigale sharah hamishim. The Mashiach is going to come and he's going to reveal the 50th gate. He's going to open our eyes to the atzmos of Hakadosh Baruch Hu in this world, and all this nonsense of what type of Jew you are, all these man-made constructs of Reformed and Conservative and Orthodox and Modern Orthodox and Charedi and Dati Lumi and Chardal and all of the different ways that we've divided ourselves up. And are you pro Thank you Hashem or not pro Thank you Hashem?

50:09 Menashe Ora told me that the Biyam Dakecha told him that he was so happy. He was so happy for Menashe. Baruch Hashem, you have mesnagdim. That means you're doing something right. In the times of Mashiach It's niflous. It's nun plois. It's that madriga of nun that is going to be brought into the world. We're going to see the pelo. We're going to see the wondrous nature of that fiftieth dimension. Baruch Hashem, we should be zayche to watch as our enemies continue to fall. That Baruch Hashem. They're going to fall in every single way. They're going to fall al piderachateva from missiles and from F-16 bombers, and they're going to take out all of their capacity to hurt any Jew. Every single Jew is precious. Every single Jew is beautiful. It's a chilul Hashem any single time that a Jew is hurt on any level by a guy in this world. The Hakadosh Baruch Hu is mamish going to wipe out all of their capacity to hurt any Jew. But it requires us. It requires us to reach this madrega.

51:12 Of Yigalah Sharach Hamishim to live on this level, this fiftieth level of kedusha, that all we're trying to do is get close to Hakadosh Baruch Hu That there'll be no more division between our intellect and our emotion, that we won't be living by the chin of Chokma Bagoyim Tamin, but by Torah Bagoyim Al Tamin. There's no Torah when it comes to Goyim. That's specifically for Yidden. It's only us who has the ability to unite our head and our heart. And if we can unite all of Klal Yisrael, because we unite ourselves. And by His Hashem will be zayicha that Mashiach should come and reveal the fiftieth gate. Have a frailich and purim, everybody. If I can ask You there said that the calamity.