Question:
I feel like my davening is so much better in a minyan or when I’m with / around friends so then I question how genuine I am, so I was wondering if you had any suggestions or eitza.
I feel that after I go to a shiur or speak with friends I feel a fire lit inside of me but I want it to come from within and not only from outside sources; how do I gain that within myself so I don't feel like I'm reliant on my rabbeim and friends?